Remember Me, Mi Amore

7

Life is fun when you have nothing to worry about. You just lay your back on and whiff some of that air that's passing by. Unluckily, those are the things that I'm not experiencing. It isn't even an inch to my experience.

Because I'm here right now. Letting my ears be filled with some stuff that my teacher is talking about while my chin is resting in the palms of my hand. It's our English subject today. It's just a recap of what we learned yesterday.

"Now find one partner and do everything on page thirty to thirty-one." My lungs, that were giving me air, suddenly stopped. My heart, which was pumping blood in my veins, stopped. My chin, which was resting in my palm dropped.

That announcement had a feeling to me that I  shouldn't feel... a feeling that I had felt when she wasn't by my side. That emotion that you feel... nothing. You feel empty as you walk, eat and talk. That feeling when you feel like something is missing by your side. A feeling that... your heart aches and tear into a million pieces as you remember the times... you and that people shared during those times.

As my eyes linger on what is in front of me, my heart was crashing as someone made her steps towards Luna. I held my hands tightly as I looked at the girl. Every step she does, my eyes went with her. 

Fear creeps within me. What if Luna accepted her? What if... what started as a school project... slowly turns into a friendship? A friendship that lasts long, more than ours. A friendship, that in every way, wouldn't be in shambles just because something didn't happen as we expected it to be. What if... I was replaced? What if, one day, I was just there... letting my eyes savor the sight of Luna having a new best friend while I let streams of water pour down my eyes? What if all those things happened to me?

"Luna!" The words poured out of my mouth while I watched the girl that was making its way to Luna stopped in her tracks. I breathed out an exasperated sigh as I let my eyes be free from my own holdings. 

"Uh... Ano 'yun, Anne?" My eyes on that girl suddenly went up to Luna. Just like me, her sight was on my eyes. Now, we are looking at each other. 

Why did I call her in the first place? Why did I let her name be muttered out of my mouth? Why did I do all those things? Why? Oh... right! It was because fear inside me crept in which whispered things to my nerves. To which I listened to and gladly did its bidding without a second to think off.

Now I had to deal with the consequences that it had struck upon me. While I let my mind think of an answer to her question, I wandered my eyes off her. While looking at it, it brought me the same time that we met each other. The same day but not the same hour.

Luna... on the same hand, had also had the same emotion pasted on her face. The same eyes that feel like one single word will make the water in her eyes, drop. The same shy face that she held every time she meets someone. Her face screams vulnerability and softness with her glances. It's just... the same, everything about her.

"Anne?" She asked my name, wanting my answer, begging for it. 

My brain finally had some answers. It wanted me to be with Luna, and try to explain my side and everything that had came that day. It begs for me to try to reconcile the feeling and the friendship, we used to have before everything had gone into a chaos of things. It aches for my mouth to open and tell all the thing I wanted the most.

Luna suddenly let out a small smile. I'm not certain of anything why she suddenly did that. She just did. But... I'm mostly certain that that suddenly brought me back to the past. 

The past where I ran as fast as I could while her begging screams of me coming back to her, filled my ears. It brought me back to that place. The place that I didn't want to be in. No person ever wanted to be in that situation, but here I am reliving that moment in my life right now.