Remember Me, Mi Amore

30

I suppressed a yawn after looking into the plants outside our house. I even blinked a couple of times, trying to see and knock my senses. I feel like bags under my eyes are growing second by second because of how tired I am feeling! If bags under my eyes grow, I'm gonna sue. I'm suing this sucky day.

You might ask me, what am I doing outside our house when I should be going to school. Well, the answer was simple. It was because my car suddenly broke out of nowhere. I know! Nakakainis nga 'e!

Now, I'm waiting for Kuya Elmer. I know that I could drive one of the cars in our garage right now, but that's the problem. There are no cars in the garage because Kuya Elmer used one of them. He drove my Dad towards somewhere. That somewhere was the reason why I had a frown on my face and why I was so grumpy in the afternoon.

It's just that every time I remembered those words, I will remember that my days are pending. That, soon enough, I needed to go, and I don't want to remember those things. Never ever. Because who in the world would like to remember that any day now, you are gonna leave to a place you've grown? No one.

I was deep in the ocean of my thinking, that I didn't notice that a car pulled up in front of me. The only time that I did notice was when someone tapped my shoulder. Oh. I didn't also realize that my father was in front of me until he tapped my shoulder gently.

"Anne, one week. We only have one week," he said to me as he holds out two papers in front of my eyes. One week? But... that feels short.

"Can we..." I stopped mid-way to the sentence. Thinking if I should pull this decision or just push it at the back of my mind and forget about it. "Can we please extend it for three days more?" I pulled it.

I hope he says yes. Because I needed to catch up on things before I go. One week is not gonna cut it, madami pa akong kailangang gawin sa school. I have no time to bond with my friends in that one week. So, please, just please, I hope he says yes.

When he sighed, I looked at him. Eyebrows in one line and my heart beating out of fear of what the answer could lie ahead. "Okay then. But just three days, Anne. After that... I think you know." He thrust his eyebrows up to me after saying that. Which I understand as you know what to do.

I nodded my head at him and kissed him in the cheeks as a goodbye. I got inside the car and sat at the back.

When the car was driving away from the house, I looked back at it. I saw it slowly being little in my sight. Little by little as we go on our driving. Until I didn't see any more of it. I fixed myself after staring at our house which was slowly becoming smaller in my sight. Is this really my reality now?

I slumped my back at the car and looked outside the car's window. Like the house that was smaller now and my eyes and had disappeared also, I hoped that my days in here aren't like that. I just hope it goes on gradually and not fastly as I would treasure more things that way. I just hope it fades into the background slowly and not swiftly as I have a lot of things to catch on to.

All the things that I hoped, didn't come true. Even an inch. Because the week that I spent, felt like a blur that was passing by me. Every day that passed by me felt like seconds. Every second, I didn't feel it. Why do I have to be so unlucky?

I sighed and fixed myself on where I was sitting. I used my hand to iron some of the parts of my toga that were crumpled. Yes, you heard it. Toga. I'm on my graduation now. This feels surreal.

I hope that days will come slower, but when it comes to my graduation, I will always wish that it will not. I will always hope that days will come fast to this day. Because this is the thing that I have been waiting for a very, very long time.