Remember Me, Mi Amore

14

"Hindi ko siya maintindihan. Alam mo 'yun? Nakakainis lang kasi. Bigla na lang siya umiiwas sa akin. The last thing that I did know, I didn't do anything to make him mad at me." I ranted out to the person who was on my side this time as I balled my fists and my jaws locked in place.

Yes, I'm still bitter about him. Yes, days had passed since that interaction. Yes, after that he was still avoiding me. Yes, the time that I was saying what happened to us was just yesterday. 

No, I will not accept his sorries to me. Well... it depends on how he says he's sorry. No, I don't want to go to where my Dad wants. I love it here. I've grown to this place. But if he wants to go then he can go. It's not like my existence mattered that much to them. Particularly, her.

"Sure ka ba?" Timothee asked me. 

 I'm being accompanied by Tim right now. He is the only one who is available at the moment and we are concerned about his well being. It's just that... ever since someone left... all the sunshine of someone, left. We don't like seeing him like this.

"Sure sa what?" 

"Na wala kang ginawa? Baka naman ginalit mo siya o 'di kaya may sinabi kang offensive.," He asked me again about my actions. He clearly was not paying attention to all this time. "Alam mo naman minsan si Forsythe. Mas okay lang na masaktan siya sa katahimikan kaysa sabihin kung ano talaga ang nararamdaman niya." 

I nodded my head at him. That is true.

I remember the time where I said how great Forsythia is in front of Forsythe. Just for me to know that that day after that, Forsythe was mad about that and upset too. His twin sister told me about that. I said sorry after Forsythia told about that. Wait... Maybe I did offend Forsythe!

"Uhm, is asking him why his face is red, something offensive?" With my voice hesitating and in question. Is that something offensive? Is it okay to ask a man like that? Is it?!

The answer to my question was put on hold when we arrived at our destination. We went to the park that was near Forsythe's house. I suddenly wanted to go there. 

We walked towards the seller who was selling ice cream after getting out of the car. I haven't had this in a while!

"Wait?! Tama ba 'yung narinig ko? Namula si Forsythe?!" 

"Kung ayaw mo maniwala 'e 'di wag," I answered his stupid question and his stupid voice. Tatanong tanong pa sa 'kin. Hindi naman siya maniniwala sa sasabihin ko pala. Seriously, this guy.

"Naniniwala ako!" He shouted again. I rolled my eyes at him just to answer what he said. "Baka gusto ka niya! Kaya siya umiiwas sayo!" What?!

It was at the last second when he said that to me, that it only sunk in what that information really was. I spit the ice cream that I was eating and I almost tripped myself on walking. 

My eyes are bawling and my jaw was locked on the floor. The beatings of my heart were racing their own way towards the sun.

I could feel Tim's laugh beside me. I also could feel the ice cream melting in my hands as I feel the same way that maybe Forsythe maybe liked me. Well... that's bold of you to assume, Anne. Bold of you to put Forsythe's standard as someone like you. I'm pretty and kinda smart, I also have good humour. Not be a narcissist or anything, but I'm pretty sure that I'm everyone's type. But that doesn't mean that I'm Forsythe's type.

His type is more on the brainy and more the quiet type. How do I know?! I just know?! Besides, we are just friends.

"Naniwala naman siya!" I was quickly put out of my thinking when Tim suddenly said that. I knew it! He was just kidding! With my two fingers pressed together, I dug it on Tim's skin. With every laugh that comes out of his mouth, the pain of my pinching, became higher. "Aray ko! Truce na! Truce!" After he was repeating what he was saying and his wincing was enough for my ear, I stopped.