Moments || H.S

sixty three ; butterflies

(a lot of photos oops)

It's been exactly 2 months since that conversation with Louis, where he would me to make to "make life interesting" So, that's what I'm doing by taking Lilah and H to the zoo for the day. Harry jumps in the car, wearing a flower shirt to celebrate all the flowers starting to bloom again and I can't wait to take photos of him surrounded by flowers, he looks beautiful today. 

I've been doing a lot of thinking about Lou's words and how I can bring excitement back into our lives. I'm going to treat everyday like it's special and like it's our last with them, because one day it might be. I want to make my life feel exciting, because it is to other people. The life we live should be thrilling, I mean, my best friends are One Direction and models. I've met so many celebrities through Harry and the crazy thing is some of them knew who I was, only confirming my suspicions that Harry talk about me-which I'm not sure how to feel about yet and when I bought it up with Harry all he said was 'well, you're worth talking about' . 

We arrive at the zoo and I'm taken back at the map. This place is huge and I have nowhere where to go first. Harry must have read my mind because he says,

"Where to first?" He's pushing Delilah in the pram and I look at her. She's wearing a little bucket hat and flower pink shirt and white pants, not hard to see who chose her outfit this morning. She nearly matches Harry. Winter may be favorite season, but spring is a close second. 

"Zebras?" I suggest and he nods his head and we walk towards the direction of them. 

We see most of the animals, Zebras, Lions, Tigers and Elephants. All the big ones first up, stopping to take photos of them all with Delilah looking amazed. Her big blue eyes are wide at the things she's only ever seen in TV and books we read her. She especially loves the monkeys, laughing at them playing with each other and swing from ropes. 

Flowers are everywhere as I had hoped, all different colors along the path and in the enclosures. I take a few photos of the bees and Harry holding them (the flowers, not the bees) in his hand towards the camera . We stop to have lunch at the cafe and birds fly around the room, a parrot copies everyone laughs in the corner of the room. Children and parents sit at the wooden tables around us, the sun shining directly on my back. 

 We sit there for a while, eating our sandwiches and juice, taking it in. It's nice to get out sometimes. It feels like the only places me and Harry go together nowadays are the studio and each others houses. I'm really hoping to change that because I love doing things with him and love seeing whats outside the front door. I do miss seeing the world, hopefully we go on holiday soon because touring was the best part of our lives. 

I remember all the places we went and things we saw. With the band and solo, I feel so grateful to be able to experience that journey first hand and see the whole thing from their eyes. Being right there with the screaming fans and then backstage after the show watching them goof around together. After Harry shows I used to be driven back to the hotel and wait for him to come back in his suit and grin while he told me what a good show he had. I want Delilah to experience some of the magic of seeing the world. 

There's 2 more places we want to see before heading home and they are the ones I'm most excited about, although they both seem insignificant compared to the Rhinos, I can't wait. Because that's how I feel sometimes, insignificant compared to Harry Styles, I've never told him that. Seems like a 2 am kind of conversation we will eventually have 3 years later, when the pain isn't fresh anymore. But I'm staying positive today and that means spending time with my daughter and H. 

The fish are one of the animals I wanted to see because I find them incredibly interesting and even cute. We walk into the aquarium and see a huge glass tank, fishing swimming around and different colored coral, rocks and sticks. Smaller tanks line the walls but it's obvious this is the main attraction, so we walk up to it. Delilah walks right up to the glass and looks in, hands and nose pressed to the glass inquisitively.