chapter nine; Bittersweet "You can't even tell your future wife?"
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Lucy Reese Collins
MY HAND CLOSES AROUND THE PIECE OF PAPER BEFORE TRELAWNEY SEES IT. I feel how Isaac, Hudson and Nate are staring at me, but I ignore it and look at Sirius who is waiting till I read the note. Trelawney walks to the other side of the class and I quickly open the note. You and me, Hogsmeade at 11 am? -S. My eyes meet his and I nod. Right now it's 10 o'clock, that means that after this class I will have 45 minutes to take care of everything. Suddenly the note goes up in flames. "Miss Collins, I would like to have students here who pay attention to me. Earlier I gave you your last warning. You can leave the class now! I hope you will behave better next class." Trelawney looks around waiting for an answer. "Yes professor," I say while packing my stuff. I stand and quickly leave the class. Looks like I am going to have more time than before.
I am on my way to the common room when I come across Jo. I haven't had a good conversation with her since we went home for Christmas and that's already a few weeks ago. "Luce, I need to talk to you." "Jo, I am so sorry, but I have to fix something. Sirius and I are going to Hogsmeade soon. We can talk later." I hate that I talk to her like that. She is my best friend, but these last few weeks we both have been busy with our own lifes. Our group is falling apart and everyone knows it. "Why do you push me aside all the time? Don't you see that I am all alone? I need you right now!" She says slightly angry. "I need you too, don't you see that my life is a mess right now? I barely see my friends because of my schedule, Christmas was total hell and now I have to bond with Sirius Black and for what! My mom told me this year would be amazing, but I strongly doubt that!" The moment those words leave my mouth the realisation comes. Jo is feeling exactly the same as me. It's like she's all alone. "Jo...- I am sorry. I didn't realise-" "You know how terrible I felt during Christmas. You didn't even say hi to me at the ball of the Black's. You just went straight to those Slytherin bitches. I saw you for a moment with your dad at a table and you suddenly just left. No one was there, Hudson and I are in a fight and Isaac didn't even appear. I was on my own the whole time. Now I am at school and when I kissed Sirius he tells me that he can't because of you... What's going on?" I sigh and run my hand through my hair as I try to stay strong, but I can feel the tears coming.
"Christmas wasn't okay. After my dad hit me in front of everyone he had me coming to a table with some friends of him and Walburga Black... The moment Sirius and I arrived there they told us about an Agreement. They decided that it would be better for both families if Sirius and I would get married after school...-" I can't help but sob. Saying it out loud makes it even more real. Jo steps forward and holds me. "I didn't know, I-" "How could you, I didn't tell you. I thought it would be easier to keep it a secret, but it isn't." We stay there for a moment. "I love you, Jo and I am so sorry." "Don't worry about it, I love you too." There is a silence for a moment. "You kissed Sirius?" I ask as I chuckle a bit. She looks at me and rolls her eyes with a laugh. "It was like I kissed my brother." She says and after we both laugh.
