Heart's Desires [ Adrian Pucey ]

Part 4

I walked off. I was getting ready to go to bed- as soon as I got into bed. I started thinking over today, as perusal. Thinking of how cringed I must've been, what things I should've not said, and what I should have. This got me to get mad at myself.

I shifted from being mad to feeling insecure.

What if he thought I was ugly? What if he doesn't like me? What if he's playing around with me?

I felt extremely saddened. I tried to shake these thoughts off my head.

I eventually managed to fall asleep.

The next morning I woke up, I put on my makeup, brushed my teeth, put on my robes, and got my bag. I started walking to the great hall to eat breakfast. I sat down next to Christi at the Ravenclaw table.

"Hi, Anto!" Christi said while eating.

"Hello!" I was wondering if I should tell her about last night, but then I thought she probably would be weirded out or she wouldn't know what to say or think, so I didn't say anything. Then Tamasha had come from the other side of the Ravenclaw table.

"Hi Christi, Hi, Anto!" She was Jumpy like always.

"Hi, Tamasha," both Christi and I said. I wasn't going to tell Tamasha either because she would probably say something like "oh." and I didn't like those responses. They both started talking to each other about homework. I didn't say anything because I don't enjoy talking about homework. I decided to grab some fruit. Since we were early, no one was there, so we had some time to talk before I went and sat at the Slytherin table, I would stay here and eat, but the other Slytherins would probably talk about me sitting at a different table.

"Antoinette, why aren't you talking?" Christi asked. Tamasha and her were looking at me.

"Oh, I'm just thinking." I didn't feel like talking, but at the same time, I wanted to tell someone about last night.

"Oh, okay, what are you thinking about ?" This time Tamasha has asked.

"Just about life, you know, oí shite. I have to go to the Slytherin table." I responded gloomily.

"Okay, bye, see you later, Anto!" Both Christi and Tamasha wave goodbye.

I walked off to the Slytherin table with my food. I sat down. Students started coming in, and then my sister Tafnes sat down next to me.

"Oí Anto, good morning, how's my sister today?" she seemed quite cheerful, but then again, she always does.

"Fine, thanks," I responded quickly.

"That's great, well I'll see you later!" And she went and sat down next to her friends. My brother Kieran shook my head and sat down next to his friends. I was eating when I saw Adrian walking alongside Marcus. They were about to sit down on the other side of the table. I tried not to look at him. I miserably failed... we locked eyes, he smiled at me, I smiled back and looked back at my food. A few minutes had passed by when I saw Elleney come and sit down next to Adrian. I felt upset. I was looking at them. Clearly, Elleney was flirting with him, ruffling his hair, and whatnot. Once I had finished my breakfast, I got up and walked out of the Great Hall, trying to avoid looking at Adrian and Elleney. I couldn't stop thinking about Elleney and Adrian. What if Adrian liked her. What if yesterday was planned and they were playing a joke on me? But why would they do that? All these thoughts were all over my head. Then I saw Yill.

"Oh, good morning, Yill."

"Good Morning Anto," she said with a smile on her face.

"Off to go eat breakfast?" I asked