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Six Years (2)💙

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Six fucking years, six long ass years that it's been since I last seen her when we finished filming the last film after ever happy. After was a huge part of my life it pathed the way for all my future projects and success if it wasn't for playing Hardin Scott I wouldn't be where I am today and I will forever be grateful to Anna for the opportunity of a lifetime. As soon as I was told I would be playing Hardin and they told me who my new co-star would be that was replacing Julia I googled her right away and was blown away by how beautiful she was. It didn't take long for things to heat up between us and before we knew it we were in a full blown relationship my first ever relationship. Four years I had her for and I was so happy even through all the arguments we had over the secrecy of our relationship and the distance between us she still made my stomach flip corny as shit but true. Only close friends and family knew about our relationship my mum and sister absolutely adored Jo they still do. The arguments gradually started to get worse during the last year we were together she was always begging me to move over to LA and that's just something I didn't want then my friends started to get into my head reminding me I'm only 24 and if I'm ready for all the settling down shit. The more they went on the more I started to question everything 23 years of age and tied down in a relationship my first ever one at that so the fucking coward I am pulled away from her.

Whilst filming for the rest of the films we would spend every second together enjoying the time knowing we would soon be going back to different continents and having to fit time in together but during filming for the last film we only spent time together when filming. I pushed her away being an asshole and even though deep down I hated myself for it I couldn't stop I told myself it was for the best. As soon as the film wrapped and all the promo and press tours were done I went back to London without even saying so much as a goodbye to her, four years together and I couldn't bring myself to give her a proper fucking goodbye knowing I would change my mind. A couple of weeks after getting home a box was delivered to my flat and as soon as I opened it to see she sent all my stuff back including things I bought her it's like the air left my lungs. I ended up in the pub with the boys that night wanting to drown my pathetic sorrows but it didn't help she wouldn't leave my fucking mind so when I got home I tried to call her but of course she changed her number. I know I pushed her away so I can't really blame her but fuck if it didn't hurt especially when I went on to her instagram to see she got the final blow by blocking me I couldn't stop the tears falling down my face even though I had no right to cry at all.

I wallowed in my self-pity for a few days before throwing myself into modelling and whatever job came my way I couldn't sit and think about her because every time I did I was reminded about how much of a fuck up I was. Over the next few months I was constantly reading whatever article that was posted about her even as far as logging onto Mercy's instagram and checking her profile I was a complete mess inside but pretending I was my happiest on the outside and it was fucking exhausting. About seven months after we broke up the internet went wild over a movie that Jo and Katherine were supposed to be filming together so that became my new obsession stalking the page created for updates. By time the film finally came out I went with my mum and Mercy to watch it and it was fucking incredible Jo and Kath were amazing I was in complete awe of the performance it didn't take long for the film to become one of the highest grossing films around and even got nominated for an Oscar. I was so happy for her and I wanted nothing more than to get in touch and let her know how proud I was of her but who the fuck was I kidding as if she would want to hear from me the man who was a coward and walked away from a four year relationship with no explanation.

I still check in on her now years later I can't believe how amazing she's doing, that's a lie I knew she'd do great but to see it actually happening I was am so happy and only wish I could have been there by her side. I'm doing good myself modelling a lot which I love and got a few movies and TV series it's all I ever wanted yet I can't bring myself to be happy or enjoy it the way I should be because I still regret more than anything leaving her. If I hadn't of been such a coward and let people and my inner dick get in my head we would have been together ten years now and who knows what we would have been like. I let myself get scared of the commitment side of the relationship which what I soon realised after leaving her was stupid it was already fucking serious considering we had been together four years for fuck sake. I have spent every day of the past six years regretting the choice I made to walk away from what we had and yet I still couldn't bring myself to reach out to her instead I let model after model distract me wishing each and eveyrtime the person I was with was her. About a year ago I heard she had a boyfriend but Jo being the private person she is nothing has been put up on her page and she hasn't confirmed anything in any interviews even six years later I still hold out hope she's waiting like me god why did I have to fuck the best thing that ever happened to me up!