Change of events (gxg)

Chapter 18

Steffie POV

I could kill that Darren boy, bullying someone until the point they would do anything for you, it's just so wrong. I wish that one day I could help getting rid of all the bullies. I know this might sound stupid, because how in hell would you erase bullies over the whole world? Well you have to start somewhere, I won't run forever.

After her story, MacKenzie ate a bit of what I had prepared and left for her room. She said she had some homework left, so I let her. When I finished doing the dishes, I cleaned the kitchen a bit and went to check on her, seeing if she needed any help with it. As I walked in I saw her bend over a book, scribbling and erasing some lines in her notebook. "Need some help?" I asked, walking over to her, seeing it was algebra. "Eh, yeah I'm not that good and well my dad the math genius isn't around" she replied, frowning a bit. I chuckled, grabbing a seat, sitting next to her. "Alright show me what you have to do" I told her, trying to figure out how to help. "It's these equations I don't know how to do this shit" she said while erasing yet another line. "It's cool, I know how to do them, just start with the beginning. What's your first one?" I asked her, pulling the sheet towards me. "Ok so, 4x-1=2x+1? Ok show me how you begin with this" I said, smiling at her thinking face.

An hour and a half later, we finished doing her exercises, even practising a little conversation in Spanish. "Do you need to work some more on your paper today?" she asked me, looking at the stack of papers on my desk. "No, I'll finish it tomorrow, I only need to write the discussion and then I'm finished, I have no idea why people are always freaking out over these things, they're quite fast to make. Anyway, I'll be done with that tomorrow, but then I'll have to talk to my professor over Skype or FaceTime. After all that I'm done" I said, making a small happy dance. "Okaay, you can stop with the weird movements now, I'm freaking out!" she laughed, pushing me away. "I know I can't dance, but that doesn't always stop me though" I grinned, getting up to put on my pyjamas. "You want some privacy? I can leave you know" she said, going to the door. "Oh eh yes please" I said, giving a small smile, grabbing my clothes, before running into the bathroom, changing there. I should pay attention to what I'm doing...I know she doesn't mind me changing in front of her, but I don't want her to see me like that. I'm even holding in my stomach every time I'm around someone, just to look that inch smaller. It never really works, but hey, I'm trying no?

I jumped on the bed, grabbing a book, searching for the right page and started to read a bit. As soon as I had read a few pages I felt something wet against my hand, making me pull back immediately. "What the?!" "Bubbles? Sorry Steffie she escaped, apparently she didn't like my feet in her face" she laughed, jumping on the bed with me, patting the space next to her, making Bubbles sit there. She immediately started patting her everywhere, tickling her behind her ears. While watching them, my smile grew, I knew she could be happy, she just needed the right people or animals around her. "Sorry I didn't want to disturb you, we can go back into the living room you know" she said after a while, holding Bubbles around her waist. "Nah it's cool, I was just startled, because well I didn't expect her to come here and sniff my hand" I laughed, putting my book away. "Anything you want to talk about?" I asked, lying down on my back. "Eh, could we talk about us? I mean I think I know you like me more than just friends?" she started, hesitating a little. "Oh, well... Yes" I replied honestly, biting my lip. Somewhere I know she doesn't feel the same. "Mhm, that's what I thought, but eh I don't think I feel the same, I mean I love you but not in that way. You know?" she said uneasy. "Yeah, I thought something like that would happen, but I understand, I mean we don't know each other that well and I mean the age difference. I'm about to graduate college when you're still in the middle of high school. I guess I wasn't really thinking about all that" I told her, getting up. "But don't worry, it won't be awkward or so, I mean I won't stay here this long anymore. When I finished college and we went to the concert in Springfield I'll move out to New York. You know that it has always been my dream to go there or even live there" I added, going into the living room, turning the TV back on.

MacKenzie POV

While Steffie is watching TV, I got Bubbles to leave the room and I jumped on my own bed, putting on some music. I know she's hurt, but she can't expect me to be with her if I don't feel the same, that wouldn't be fair to either of us. She told me about her ex, that they were together for about six months when suddenly her ex said she never even loved Steffie. In the meantime her ex was cheating on Steffie with three other girls, I mean who does that? That's one reason why I don't want to be her girlfriend, I don't want to lead her on and let her think we are in love when really she's the only one with those feelings. I wish there was a better way to say it, but I just blurted it out, I had to say it.

I shut down the music and decide to go to Steffie for a moment, to see if she's doing ok. "Hey, can I join you?" I asked, waiting for a reply. She just nodded, looking at the screen. "What are you watching?" I asked, plopping myself in the couch. I looked at the screen, trying to figure out what she was watching, but I couldn't make anything out of it, when I turned to look at Steffie I saw she had tear tracks on her cheeks. "Look, I didn't want to hurt you, but I just don't want to lead you on and make you think I love you that way, when I don't. I'm sorry" I said, feeling bad. She got closer to me, laying her head on my lap. I pulled the blanket over her, keeping her warm. "I know you came all the way here to see me, but I can't help that I don't have those feelings for you" I added, playing with her hair, trying to calm her down a bit. "It's ok, I mean, yes it hurts, but it's better for me to know now, than to know after being so many months together and then all of a sudden you would tell me this" she said, looking up at me. "Thank you by the way, for telling me, I know it must have been hard for you too" she added, smiling lightly, before turning back to the screen. "You know you don't have to force a smile you know, it's ok to show your emotions, just don't go all crazy on me" I said, trying to make her smile, for real this time. "Ok, that would be something I guess, but I promise not to go crazy on you" she replied, giggling lightly. "But eh, want to go to bed? It's quite late and I want to finish that damn paper tomorrow. And you have school misses" she said, trying to sound stern, making me chuckle. "Alright lazy pants, but you'll have to get up first" I said, turning off the TV. "Carry me" Steffie whined, which caused me to roll my eyes, but eventually I picked her up, carrying her to the bedroom. I dropped her on her bed, searching for my pyjamas, going to the bathroom to put them on. I heard her mumble things, while she got under the covers, probably scolding at me for dropping her just like that. Ah well, she just asked me to carry her, nothing more. When I was ready for bed, I got back to see she was sound asleep, so I went over to her, kissed her forehead and got in my bed. "Goodnight princess"