The Breeders

Chapter 25 Unlocking The Past

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~Hawke~

The command was clear, the Royal wanted me to master the guardian power from the old one. More importantly by the next full moon. The question was could it actually be done?

The old one looked on as Mimas faded from before me, her great wings flapped as she looked down at me. I felt that she knew my doubts before I even spoke them. Her color was almost back to its pure white and her eyes were lit purple. She finally looked like the memory I had and the great tales of the protector of the skies. The things she was known for were talked about for generations, but could she help me?

'Before the next full moon, I must unlock the guardian power.' Her eyes began to glow purple.

'Then I will teach you, let's begin.' She seemed sure that it would be easy. 'I've tried and still nothing has happened.' Her eyes began to glow purple.

'The full moon.' The old one responded.

'It's another full moon I've felt the same with all of them that have come before.' She let out a huff and snarl as she paced the room her massive size shaking the tower. 'Not just any full moon but the blood moon!'

I've heard of the blood moon but there were tales that it did not come as often as it used to. How? 'It's when we wolves are stronger yet I fail to see how that will help me.'

'When a royal is present it is stronger and with the guardians that protect the night.' I stood pacing the room. 'Yet I would have to unlock the power in order to become a protector of the night. There is no way that I would be able to unlock it by then.'

'It is within you and you must unlock it but you have to work within yourself. Otherwise it will remain there.'

Within myself, what did she mean by that? Simply put, that it just would not come out there was nothing within me that held it back. At least I thought.

'What blocks you from unlocking it?' The old one stood before me awaiting my answer. 'What blocks me? All I've wanted was to unlock this power. I have always felt it within me and no other wolf could ever take me, until the royal.'

Which would be one loss that I would have to carry from a north wolf no less. Despite it all I could have no greater honor than fighting against the greatest opponent I could have.

'There is no block. What could ever hold me back when I push myself so hard?'

'Your fear.' Her words made something stir within me.

'What fear? I do not have fear. I have killed countless people and my own kind without mercy and bathed in the blood of the fallen. I fear nothing and no one.'

'Ah but you fear your past and what you might find. You have locked away that night when things changed.' I lower my head as flashes of a memory begin to run through my head. The old one keeps speaking. 'Those memories are the key, you must accept that to become the guardian.'

The memories continue getting more aggressive but I hold them back. Why were these memories so important? 'Why must I face a past that does not define who I am? Is wanting to help and set right what I have done to my own kind not enough?'

'It is because you fear it most deep down that you must face it. A guardian does not fear they protect and any ounce will render you useless.'

Avis looked upon me, her eyes still aglow she was forcing me to unlock parts of my past. Ones that I wanted to stay hidden and never to come out. Whatever those memories were they seemed to be locked for a reason.

'As you said before you fear nothing and no doubt were the first in line to battle. Upon facing death, you are not afraid, this is what you feel is it not?'

I tilted my head nodding knowing that all she said was true. In fact, death was something I did not think of for myself. Rather it was something that I saw for my enemies instead. Especially ones that deserved to die. Death did not matter to me.

'That is why you must face it head on so that you are able to move forward. When you do a door will be opened to you and many things will follow and a sense of peace. Your guilt that now plagues you is because you had no knowledge of what and who you are.'

'But I know who I am, my guilt comes from what I have done. That is why I'm seeking peace to right the wrongs I have done.'

'You were molded by a man who followed that of a greedy leader. The fault is not your own. It is with your upbringing and the rage you used on others misguided. Face your past and embrace your peace.'

'The past brings on horrible things that I'm not sure I can face. What you are asking me is to look into memories that bring unknown pain.'

'If you ignore it you are running from it, you will be locked away forever and your guilt will rise. You think that the only guilt you possess are the things you've done. Yet, you are wrong. It is guilt in your past that limits you.'

Walking towards the open windows I stared out wanting nothing more than to embrace my past. Yet, how could I do that when all I felt was confusion and pain.

'Your freedom comes with facing the past and once you do you will have peace. When you possess a light within, you see externally, sharing it with others.'

Looking I saw the humans as they led my kind harshly and the scared pups. There was fear in the air yet still hope from the Royals message. Their fight was not done yet and if they could summon the courage so could I. After all I was not afraid of anything or anyone, facing my past may be difficult but I was ready to become what I must.

'Then help me unlock the past and face it. This goes beyond me. I must grow to protect them.'

There was a feeling inside that kept crushing me and I knew that it would bring me to the depths of hell. Avis purple light began to shine bright as it grew my surroundings beginning to change around me. Taking shape into something all too familiar, the memory of Avis flying in the sky up above, and my mother. Some odd reason it now frightened me but not now in my current state. I was a pup again the fear was my memory but I felt as if it were happening now.

The old one had placed me in a memory but it was so real I felt everything. From the gentle breeze to the comforting touch of my mother and the scents in the air. My memory was changing from how I remembered it last. My mother was in her human form and so was I but I knew for a fact that we were always in wolf form.

Avis the dragon landed and just like in my memory she talked with my mother. Yet, what I heard could not be true, none of it could. My father could be seen running in the distance towards my mother and she stood her ground as he shouted. Those words could not be coming from their mouths, it could not be true. What the old one said before could not be true. The humans were not responsible for all that has happened until today, but how could it be my parents?