Stage Fright

Chapter 40 ~ Shower

Josh

Heather is an absolute miracle worker. I don't know what she said or did to Mandy.....but this is the most human I've ever seen her act. It's been over two weeks since she's been back and she's been staying out of everyone's way, listening to directions and trying to be friendly.

I just couldn't believe it, I'd never seen her this relaxed in my whole life. Heather was making a genuine effort to befriend her, they'd hang out sometimes and she'd always make a point to talking to her at rehearsal. Heather broke the mould when it came to popular rich girls, she was kind, sweet and wanted to make everyone happy.

We'd still been seeing each other through this whole month, but it's been hard. My feelings were getting out of control, it killed me to keep this under-wraps and I knew it killed her too. We wanted to be like everyone else, go out to a restaurant, hold hands at school. I was so in love with her it hurt.

I always thought it was just puppy love, that I was keeping this stupid crush on a hot girl. But she was so much more than I ever could have hoped. I'd never imagined I could have so much in common with someone else, that her being asleep in my arms could make me smile. She was sensitive, she was lonely and wanted me around but she wasn't needy. That's what I loved most, that she didn't want me to change.

I'd been meticulously planning out our date for ages, I'd been planning Christmas and Thanksgiving too. She was coming back from a trip this weekend. She flew to do her interviews this weekend at Yale and Harvard. The applications for her were insane, I'd applied early so I was just waiting to hear the good or the bad. 

I knew she'd get one of them, her parents had each attended one and I'm sure her father had the connections and money to get her into whatever school she wanted to be in. But I knew she deserved it, she was smart, sharp and she had a real drive to do good things. 

I had the most incredible girlfriend. I just wish I could tell someone about it who wasn't my parents. Owen knew we were involved but nothing else, he bugged me for details pretty often but I never gave anything up. Heather's friends were fifty times worse, they were constantly begging her to go out with me.

I was a little surprised I had their support at all considering I didn't have much of a part in her circle of friends. 

But I wanted her, we'd been together for nearly two months and we'd spent so much time together. We didn't have a single secret between us and I thought about her all the time. I thought about her smile, her long eyelashes. Sometimes I'd let my mind slip and then I'd think about what she looked like in lingerie or topless.

She was gorgeous and ever since the Halloween party I'd been having a rough time with keeping myself under control. I was mostly just worried she'd be underwhelmed if we did it, that was the last thing I wanted. Maybe I should talk to her about it and see where we stood. I had a feeling it would be a better idea to wait until we were done the show. It doesn't make sense to have sex in the shadows when I couldn't even take her out on a real date.

Right now, I was mostly just excited to see her again. I wanted to hear about her interviews and see her. We normally spent the better part of the weekend together and I hadn't seen her since Friday's rehearsal. She texted me to meet her in the back hall behind the stage before rehearsal and that's where I was waiting now.

"Josh!" I hear and I perk up, knowing I recognize the voice. She hurries down the hall and I smile, picking her up as she wraps her arms around me.

"Hey." I whisper and give her a brief kiss. "So? Tell me about them how did they go?"

"So good." She says with a big smile. "They were really impressed with my S.A.Ts and the volunteering I do with my dad. Of course they also liked my grades and the involvement I had at the school........I don't know, it sounded good but maybe I'm dreaming." She whispers and I shake my head.