Life's What You Make It

Chapter 41

My early New Years gift to you all

Beyoncé's POV
"Jas, wake up sweetheart." I whispered, turning the engine off in the car as I pulled up in my moms drive. I glanced at the time on the dashboard seeing it was half past midnight. "Jas."

"Tired." Was all she mumbled as I chuckled slightly before she turned over to face the other way.

"Sleep in the car then, that's cool." I said, getting out and shutting the door.

"No wait." I heard as the car door flung open.

"Damn girl, try not break my door please." I told her,  holding onto the car door to stop it going back any further. I helped her out the car and grabbed my bag as Jas was already ahead of me.

"Ouch."

"Watch out, you gonna cause yourself another injury." I chuckled, as she almost walked into the pillar by the front door. "Are you even awake?"

"Yes." She mumbled as I caught up to her, locking my car in the process.

"Okay." I replied opening the front door as we walked in. "Straight to bed."

"Yeah yeah." She replied before heading upstairs.

"She okay?" I heard behind me, turning around to see my mom.

"Thought you'd be in bed?"

"Wanted to make sure yall got home okay."

"Oh, yeah she's fine I think. She slept most of the way." I said.

"Did yall get something to eat?"

"Yeah, stopped off at McDonald's drive thru." I replied.

"What's up Beyoncé?" She asked.

"Just thinking what to do about Shawn. I have to tell him about what happened, but I can't face him right now. I still don't know where he's been."

"He told you he was strung out on drugs and drink."

"Yeah I know. But where and who with? And where's he been staying? He said yesterday morning was the first time he's been home in a week." I said.

"Bey you can't think like this, not now anyway. You can't be stressing yourself out." She told me and I nodded. "Listen, go to bed, get some sleep and talk to Shawn in the morning, or I can do it for you. Right now you need to focus on you, the twins, Blue and especially Jas."

"That's another thing, Shawn will go mental when he finds out what happened."

"Let him. That boy who did that to her deserves everything he gets."

"She said she doesn't wanna report it." I mentioned.

"She doesn't have to. You can report it."

"Ma, she doesn't wanna go through that again."

"I know, but that boy is still out there." She told me.

"I just don't know what I'm doing anymore momma." I said, quietly letting out a sob.

"What you mean?"

"Like I told you last week, everything bad that happens stems from me. This time I let her go into a home, because what? I didn't wanna get arrested? Meanwhile she was being harassed by some horny boy."

"Beyoncé stop. You can't blame yourself for this. Yes, you did let her go there, but you did it so you could adopt her with no added problems of you being arrested. Yes Shawn did cheat on you, but that's his fault. It's his fault he couldn't tell you." She told me, embracing me in her arms.