Life's What You Make It

Chapter 18

Lmao I got made redundant so expect more frequent updates, but also don't bc I'm lazyyy af

Beyoncé's POV
Jasmine was still in my arms fast asleep when my phone pinged. It was a text from Michelle.

From: Michelle
Hey Bey, Jasmine's results just came back, all fine and clear of any sti's. You free for a scan tomorrow morning? Me and Kelly were saying we could go for a coffee after?

To: Michelle
Great news! Yeah scan and coffee sounds good, I'll get the cover teacher to do my morning lessons.

I put my phone back on the table next to Jasmine's bed and looked down at her, seeing she was stirring a bit.

"Sleep good?" I asked, releasing her from my arms as she stretched.

"Yeah." She replied quietly.

"You feel better?" I asked, and she just nodded slightly. I pulled her up slightly so she wasn't so far down the bed, and cupped her chin making her look up at me. "You don't have to be 'the big I am' in front of me, you know? Stop hiding your feelings, this guard you've got up needs to come back down."

"What do you mean?"

"I mean, stop pretending like everything's okay, and that you're fine and feel fine. It's okay to have bad days, we all get them." I told her.

"I just feel numb, like I don't know how to feel." She admitted.

"Well, I get she was your mom, and she always will be your mom, but her being found is a good thing."

"I know, I just keep thinking it's my fault-"

"No baby, stop. This is not your fault okay, I know you can't control your feelings, but please believe me when I say none of this is your fault." I said. We lay in silence for a few minutes, as I just stroked her head, before I eventually spoke again. "You must have had it so hard, and I'm sorry for not even noticing or picking up on these things."

"Like what?"

"Like that time you came into school in tears because of an argument you had with her. The things you told me she had said to you should've been a red flag in my mind."

"Oh yeah, she almost kicked me out when she found out I told you." She laughed ever so slightly. "I sometimes think the way I acted was why she turned to drugs and alcohol."

"No baby, what have I just said about stop blaming yourself."

"I guess..."

"You just needed and still need some guidance that's all." I said, referring to her attitude and mood swings.

"I suppose I didn't really have a mom to give me that. Even before she lost her job, she was always in work I barely saw her."

"I'll always be here if you need me boo. All you've gotta do is say." I said gently and she nodded, smiling slightly. "Was that a smile I saw?" I said laughing.

"Whatever." She said shrugging it off. "What time is it?"

"Only half 8." I replied and she nodded, getting up and going into the bathroom, shutting the door. She returned a minute later and I remembered Michelle's text. "Oh, do you want some good news?"

"Yeah?"

"Michelle said your test results came back fine and you're all clear." I told her and she smiled, nodding her head.

"Is Blue still up?"

"She shouldn't be, but she probably is." I said, and instantly got what she was hinting at. "Go on, go help her finish her game." I laughed. They cute together. "But be done by 9 okay."