Life's What You Make It

Chapter 46

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Jasmine's POV

The drive back home from Michelle's work was spent in mostly silence, on my part. Bey and dad were talking in hushed tones to each other, and as much as Blue tried to say she couldn't hear what they were talking about, she was waved off in the end and talked at me about her day. I just nodded here and there in response, giving the occasional gasp as she told me about the preschool gossip she had to tolerate throughout her day.

I was exhausted. All the tears I'd cried since 1:30 this morning, all the tears I'd cried since Monday night actually, the panic attacks I'd endured, which were a whole new experience, the hallucinations, the constant cravings, the pushing everyone away, and not to mention the complete loss of appetite, all of this emotion had me feeling drained.

"You getting out?" I heard dad ask, as the car door opened causing my arm to fall.

"Huh?" I asked, coming back into reality.

"We're home now kid."

"Oh right, yeah." I replied, unbuckling the seatbelt and sluggishly getting out of the car.

"You need to get out of that head of yours."

"I'm trying."

"It'll get easier, I promise. You just gotta give it time." He told me and I nodded before walking inside.

"Where you going?" Bey called from the kitchen as I turned towards the staircase. I rolled my eyes, letting out a breath of frustration before walking over to her.

"Nowhere," I mumbled. I would kill for some alone time right now.

"You wanna talk about today?"

"Not really. I'm over it." I said. I was in fact, not over it.

"No you not, but we'll talk later okay?" She asked and I just shrugged in response.

"Can I please go lie down? I have a headache." I asked, and dad came up from behind feeling my forehead before shaking his head at Bey.

"You can sit in the living room with me, but you can't go on your own." Dad offered.

"Let's watch cartoons." Blue said, grabbing hold of my hand and dragging me away. "I saved you."

"Until one of them comes in." I replied and after a couple of seconds, Bey walked in. "And there it is."

"Mommy, Jasmine wants sister time, you're not our sister." Blue said making me chuckle slightly.

"Does she now?" Bey side eyed me playfully.

"Yes. Yes, she does." I replied crossing my arms as I fell back onto the couch.

"Tough." Bey replied. "Your dad's making dinner anyway, you can't leave me out."

"That's what you think." Blue mumbled, receiving a light pop from Bey. "I'm just saying, you don't like cartoons."

"Well, I do now." Bey said, sitting down and pulling Blue into her lap. "What's this about Auntie Kelly telling me yall were bullying her?"

"We did no such thing." Blue replied, grinning at me and I softly laughed in response.

"Hm, not what I was told. Yall be bullying me now."

"What's dad cooking?" I asked.

"Changing the subject don't work with me." Bey said.