Fate

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Present

"Ye, are you okay? Your smile just won't go away. Tinamaan na kita ng bola, naka smile ka pa rin", Kianna said.

"All I know is, you didn't sleep kagabi sa dorm. Hmm. Ikaw ah", Des added.

"What? I'm just smiling. You two are so malicious."

"Uy ah, we didn't say anything though. Napaghahalata ka. Haha!"

I don't know what's with them. Or maybe, what's with me? Si Kiefer kasi eh.

Flashback

"You better be good at this Kiefer."

Kiefer won't say anything. He's just standing there na parang nagugulat.

"Hey, care to say something?", I said.

"Are we on the same page? You mean, tonight is...", Kiefer finally said.

"Ayaw mo?"

"Babe? You're asking me? Gusto. Gustong gusto. Alam mo naman iyon eh."

"Oh, eh what's the problem?", I asked while Kiefer's helping me change the sheets.

"Eh nagulat ako. Teka, wala talaga akong dala. I removed it na kasi from my wallet. Are sure you're fine without it?"

Napaisip ako bigla. This is going to be our first, and I want it to be in a very natural way. Pero paano pag nadisgrasya?

"Wait, marunong ka naman diba?"

"Ahhh, of course..of course. I don't want to use it either. Pero ikaw lang iniisip ko."

"Yah, you're right. Delikado pag wala. Okay, maybe now is not the right time. Huwag na lang?", I asked while I sit on his lap.

"Patay. Nabitin na. Kumandong ka pa."

"Eehh babe kasi, natakot din ako bigla eh."

"Okay. I understand."

"Eh paano ka? Sabi mo nabitin ka? We haven't done anything yet kaya."

"Babe, wala pa nga. But just the thought of it na gusto mo din. Medyo gumagalaw na siya. Alam mo yun?", Kiefer said while touching my right ear down to my neck.

"Ganun ba iyon? Sige na nga, tayo na ako. Baka gumalaw pa iyan lalo. Let's watch a movie na lang? I have new dvds here."

We sat on the floor and started our movie marathon. Kiefer's leaning on my shoulder while I'm caressing his hair. He's been quiet for a while now.

"Babe? You good?", I asked.

"Yep. Why?"

"You seem serious now."

"Nah. Yung movie kasi oh. Affected lang ako", he said.

"Babe, we're currently watching a comedy movie."

"Ahh, sabi ko nga."

"Ahy naku, is it because hindi natuloy tonight?"

He held my face close to his.

"Babe, look at me. It's okay. I understand. Maybe naiinis lang ako sa sarili ko kasi I should have been prepared? Kung kelan kailangan, tska naman hindi ko dala."

"It's not your fault. Binigla kita. So it's okay."

He stood up and grabbed his wallet na nakapatong sa bed.

"Oh, where are you going?", I asked.

"Ice cream. I'll buy some ice cream for us. Chips na rin. Movie marathon isn't complete without chips. Just stay here. Mabilis lang ako."