Fate

Winner

Kiefer

It's game day between the ALE and the DLSU Lady Spikers. For the past few days, people had been asking me about my presence in today's game and the team that I will be cheering for. Some are even questioning my loyalty to my school.

Sometimes, I just find it lame and shallow, very shallow. In each and every interview that I give, I always consider Mika's side. I hate it when people are bashing her because of this bullshit rivalry that's being taken seriously by some fantards. I must admit, whenever I am asked about cheering between Ateneo and Mika, I play safe. But this I do because the moment I become too honest, people will start throwing negative comments against us. I don't really mind, but I have to protect Mika. It's all about her.

I hate it when she's able to read negative tweets about this whole thing. Distractions, she doesn't need those especially during volleyball season. And when I say "too honest", it means that my all out support goes to my girlfriend, and I want her to win, and if I want her to win, it means I want La salle to win. And in 3..2..1.., haters will spread their wings and multiply. And that's the bullshit part of being too honest. And I don't want that to happen. So as much I want to cheer my heart out everytime she makes a point, or her teammates for that matter, I hold back a little and it's my mind who do the cheering. And it's hard, I tell you, it's effin' hard. It's like you want to explode coz you can't show your real emotions. But I guess, that's something that we both need to deal with. Coz the moment our hearts decided to beat as one, we knew that it's not going to be easy. People will always have something to say. They feel entitled to dwell in somebody else's affairs. And if you answer them back, they take it against you. So Mika and I have this agreement to just ignore the issue. These people probably don't know how it is to fall in love. They take my place, and they will surely understand. But hey, nobody takes my place, someone else can be the new phenom, blue mamba or king eagle, but mika's boyfriend? Na-ah.

Unfortunately, Mika's team lost. Yes, I just said unfortunately. It was an epic game. And Mika was on fire. The third set belongs to her. Her solid blocks made my heart beat a thousand faster. That's the Mika whom I know. Palaban. It's just that they fell short. Kamusta puso ko? Ito durog. Hindi na ako magpapanggap pa. Wala ng space sa katawan ko para magpretend. Sobra sobra na ako dun. I stood up and clapped after the match point, but my eyes won't lie. They were all over the court, looking for her. I want to make sure that she's okay. Well, I know it's not okay, pero gusto ko lang siyang damayan kahit na ang layo ko sa kanya. Yung feeling na gusto mong share na lang kayo sa lungkot, para kahit panu mabawasan yung nararamdaman niya. Oh boy, I just want to hug her right now. Ang hirap, leche, napakahirap.

But I didn't have the chance na makalapit. They went straight to the dugout after their school hymn. Palabas na din ako ng arena, I just want to get inside the car and text her. Some are asking for a photo ops with me, pinagbigyan ko naman.

Kiefer: I love you. I love you. I love you. You made me proud, as always. You did great baby. I want to see you. :)

That's all I said. Hindi ko na siguro kailangan sabihin na okay lang kahit na natalo sila. I will just add insult to the injury. I waited for her reply. I know it will take some time. Knowing coach Ramil, may mga post game rituals pa sila.

She finally replied.

Mika: Same here. But we have a team dinner. Tomorrow na lang?

Kiefer: Awww. Okay babe. Eat well. Facetime after? I miss you so bad.

Mika: I miss you too. Thanks for today.

Kiefer: No biggie. Number one fan right here. Are you smiling now?

Mika: The moment I received your text, I smiled already. :)

Kiefer: Good. On my way home. But hey, Tita Bhaby said that you're not feeling well. You didn't tell me though :(