Fate

Revelations

Mika

It's been months since we won the championship. The team was very happy. Bonus pa kasi 3-peat na. Honestly, parang instant celebrity din yung lady spikers. Left and right ang guestings right after. Personally, masaya ako, but a part of me has been kind of lonely even during that season.

I just had my heart broken. I spent days and nights figuring out what's really buggling me inside. Until I realized that all I need to do is to be honest with myself. Somehow, at some point, umasa pala ako. Yes, I had my fair share of pagiging hopia. And what's worse was, sa isang tao pa na hindi ko naman inakala na magugustuhan ko. Yes, I never thought that i would be having a thing for Kiefer. Yes, Kiefer Ravena. It all started when he asked for a picture with me. Well actually, even before that pa pala. To be exact, that first time na nakita ko siya watching our game. From then on, I was silently wishing na maging close kami and mapansin niya ako. That's why, I was super happy when he asked for a picture with me. Kinilig ako doon, hindi lang siguro niya nahalata. After that, lagi na akong nagaabang sa twitter. Waiting for him to follow me. Until hindi na ako nakatiis, I followed him first. He followed me back naman. Which gave me that hopia factor again na he might consider the fact of getting closer with me.

But all my hopes vanished when he posted a tweetpic of him and his rumored gf. I never knew that he's in a relationship with that girl until that specific post. I've seen him post their selfies before but I thought friend lang niya since Kiefer is known to have many girl friends. But that time, the post was very specific, it says "I love you, Trinca".

Which  makes me go back to that Unigames encounter. I saw him with his teammates. And when I saw his tweet later that night, nagcomment naman ako na it was nice to see him. But he did not respond at all. Seenzoned ba. Yun pala may girlfriend na siya that time.

Ang hassle lang. Kiefer didn't even make a move, pero ba't parang super affected ako. He doesn't even like me naman siguro. With or without that girl, hindi niya ako gusto, period. But I have endless what ifs. Kung alam lang siguro niya, pagtatawanan niya ako. Ang hirap naman maging babae, you can't make the first move. All I did was to follow him on twitter. Message sent kayo yun? Or hindi naman siguro siya malicious magisip. Meanwhile, his brother, Thirdy and I are getting closer. Oopps. Don't get me wrong. Closer as friends lang. I like him as a brother. Sila ni Dani. Parehong makulit.

(Got a call from Thirdy. Chill  daw kami Eastwood. So I asked sino pa kasama. He said a few names na common friends namin. Pero yung totoo, I was just waiting for him to say na kasama Kuya niya. But it's impossible. Kiefer won't hang out with me. Mamaya niyan maissue na naman kami.)

Thirdy calling....

Mika: Lapit na ako. I'll just park the car then saan kita puntahan diyan?

Thirdy: Starbucks na lang. Malapit na din yung iba.

Mika: Okay. See you.

Kiefer

I'm with Thirdy right now here at Eastwood. He's going to meet his friends. Sinamahan ko lang habang wala pa sila, while I'm waiting for Trinca. She had some errands pa kasi so sabi niya kita na lang kami dito. I have no idea if sino mga friends na kasama ni Thirdy. Siguro classmates niya.

Thirdy:  Lapit na si Mika, saan na kaya yung iba?

Nagulat ako sa sinabi niya...Sinong Mika kaya?

Kiefer: Mika?? Mika who?

Thirdy: Edi Reyes. Sino pa ba kilala ko na Mika?

Kinakabahan ako. Part of me is wishing na sana he's just kidding na si Mika Reyes nga yun. Pero somehow, parang gusto ko rin siya makita. It's been months since the last time I saw her. Somehow panatag ako na wala na yung naramdaman ko dati for her. Pero takte, bat kinakabahan nnman ako.