Fate

15-15

Present

Mika

Two years had passed and it feels like it was just yesterday. The way I feel about it and the sleepless nights, nothing has changed. I'm still that girl whom he had left two years ago, hurting and lonely, very lonely. My biggest dillema? I still don't know what really went wrong. I never saw it coming. It was a surprise. It happened in just a snap of a finger. It was way too fast. And just like that, he's out of my life. And it happened in a very unexpected way on a very unexpected day.

It was January 15, 2015. I woke up with excitement knowing that we'll be celebrating our 7th month together that day. The night before that, I finished the scrapbook which I was about to give him. I was never really an artistic person. So I asked some help from my bff Jessy who's very good when it comes to that. He seems to have everything already. His money can let him buy the things that he wants for himself. And so, I thought of making a scrapbook with pictures capturing our most memorable moments together. Something that his money can't buy. I was looking forward to see his reaction knowing that I've put so much effort on that.

And knowing him, I knew that he had something in store for me on that very special day as well. Our previous monthsaries were full of surprises, and so, I did expect that it will be another fun and memorable day.

It was a Sunday. No school and training for the both of us. We didn't really have the chance to talk the night before that coz he was at his teammate's birthday party and so I let him enjoy the night, so I could also finish the scrapbook. "Thank you", that was his last text that night coz I told him to enjoy and we'll just see each other the next morning.

It was 11am already but still I've got no text from him. But knowing that he partied last night, I thought he was still sound asleep. I decided to surprise him. I drove from my dorm to Cainta. I stopped by a restaurant on the way to buy his favorite pizza. And of course, I had the scrapbook with me.

"He's not here Miks. He's out of town with his teammates.", their house help said. I grabbed my phone and tried to call him. My hands were shaking while dialing his number. I tried to compose myself. But I knew I wasn't in a calm situation. Several rings, but to no avail. I decided to go to his room and looked for Thirdy. But Thirdy wasn't there as well. I sat on his bed with the scrapbook on my lap. I took a deep breath and dialled his number again. But he just wouldn't answer. "Why?", was the only thing that kept running on my mind at that very moment. I knew it's wrong to assume but I couldn't help but make conclusions. I laid on his bed with my head leaning on my right arm. I was holding the scrapbook and realized that my tears started falling. I opened his drawer to look for a tissue but I found something else. It was a small envelope with obviously a card inside with his first name written outside. It was unsealed. As much as I wanted to respect his privacy, my instinct was telling me to open it. Slowly, that's how I tried to open it. I felt like there's something wrong with that. My hands were shaking again.

And the card says...

December 15, 2014

Babe,

I know how much you love your jordans.

But I won't take them away from you.

In fact, I'm adding one to your collection.

But Baes before J's, okay?

I love you so much.

Looking forward to our dinner date later.

Happy 1st month Babe.

Love,

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