Fate

Flowers

Mika

I still have a hangover from what happened last night. I thought I was already okay. Kiefer apologized already and I've forgiven him for that. But it still doesn't feel right. I'm no longer jealous. I just feel that my man intentionally made me feel down. He's aware. But he gave no mercy even if I was already hurting in front of him. We have just reconciled after her jealousy issues but he himself made a plot for me to be jealous. I just don't understand. But I didn't want to ruin his night. So I gave in to his plea for forgiveness. I'm feeling a little bit under the weather today as well. I think I have a slight fever. Kiefer's calling. I hope I'll have the guts to tell him that I'm still not okay.

"Babe, good morning! School na ako. How about you?"

"Dorm pa. I think I can't make it to school today."

"Why? What's wrong?"

"I'm not feeling well."

"Aww. Fever ba babe."

"I guess."

"Okay, huwag ka na pumasok. Excuse yourself from training na rin. Baka lumala iyan eh,"

"Hindi pwede. Magagalit na si coach. At least sa class okay lang."

"But babe? Kaya nga aabsent coz you're not feeling well eh, then you'll attend training? Wag na pasaway please?"

"Bahala na."

"Ayan ka na naman eh, take a rest. Puntahan kita after my class. Will bring some food. And dalhan na rin kita gamot. But for now, tingin ka muna diyan I'm sure you have medicines diyan sa dorm."

"Okay."

"I love you babe. Please please, take a rest."

"Bye."

I ended the call, but I wasn't able to tell him. I guess, I just don't have the energy for that right now. I'm really not feeling well. Parang lalong sumama pakiramdam ko after that call. But I have to attend the practice. Coach will understand if may sakit ako, but I don't want him to think na baka dahil sa kakalabas ko with Kief eh napagod ako. So I'll attend the practice. Bahala na.

"Oh Ye, okay ka lang?" Ara asked.

"Yes. Why?"

"You're so pale. May sakit ka?", she asked and reached for my neck to check if mainit ako.

"Ang init mo. Why are you here? Dapat hindi ka na nagpractice."

"Hindi pwede. Coach will get mad at me na."

"Hindi yan. Tara, paalam tayo" she said and hinila ako papunta kay coach but I stopped her.

"Hindi na talaga. I'm still okay. I can manage pa naman. I'll tell you pag hindi na kaya."

"Okay. Sabi mo yan ah. Oh, stretching lang muna gawin mo. Wag na muna sumabay sa pagtalon talon", she said.

I went to the dugout to get my bottle of gatorade and I checked my phone na din. I've got one text from Kiefer.

Kiefer: Oo pare, Ang OA nga ng reaction niya kagabi. Umiyak pa.

What? Am I really reading this whole thing now? Obviously wrong send si Kiefer. And I'm used to it. Madalas siyang na wrong send coz I'm the first one sa contacts niya. But what's the meaning of this? He's definitely pertaining to me. Again, this is unbelievable. Ang sakit sakit na ng ginagawa niya sa akin. Naiiyak na naman ako. But we have a practice. I need to calm down a bit. Nanghihina ako. Parang babagsak katawan ko literally. I had to hold on to the wall while walking from the dugout.

"O gising ka na pala. Kain ka muna. Ito yung soup so you can drink your medicine", Kimmy said.

"What happened?", I asked.