Fate

Struggle

Mika

Coach was vey happy with our performance against Adamson. Personally, happy din ako coz I had 17 points, next to Ara. She's the team captain, and aside from her, I'm one of those na kailangan mag step up. After our team dinner, bumalik na kami sa dorm agad. But aside from that win, something unexpected came up today.

We were on our way to the dugout when I heard a familiar voice.

Dani: Ate Mika, Congrats!!!

Mika: Uy Dani, thanks. You watched pala. (Sabay hug sa kanya na parang feeling ko she's my little sister.)

Dani: I won't miss your game basta available. Ang galing galing mo ate. Can I have a picture with you again?

Mika: Of course, ikaw pa.

(So nakailang pictures din kami ni Dani when someone appeared right in front of me. And yeah, it's Dani's brother Kiefer. Nakatingin siya samin ni Dani. But he won't say anything. Medyo matagal din yun na naka pause lang kami dun until Dani asked him...)

Dani: Oh Manong, di ba you have something to ask her?

(Dani was talking to Kiefer but pointing at me. I don't know, but Kiefer was just standing there, na parang walang kausap and suddenly, nagsalita naman...,)

Kiefer: Ah-ah, yeah, ano, idol, pwede papicture?

(Antagal din bago niya nasabi yun. I don't know what's with him, pero mukhang tensed siya. Sa isip isip ko, I won't bite him naman)

Mika: Sure.

(Dani took the pic. Mabilis lang. I had to rush na din for the post game instructions  ni coach sa dugout, baka mahuli ako. So I said goodbye na leaving the two of them there.)

Kiefer

So eto ako ngayon, nakahiga. Looking at this pic which was taken earlier. Damn son. I'm trying to recall how I was able to have this pic. Yung paglapit ko pa lang papunta sa kanila ni Dani. I felt like ang weak ng mga tuhod ko kanina. I was about to turn my back, kaso nakita na ako ni Mika na papalapit. Bat ba kasi ang bilis ng nangyari kanina. Alam mo yung gusto ko alalahanin ngayon yung reaction niya kanina. Basically everything. But it happened way too fast. All I know is wala ako sa ayos kanina. Para sabihing papicture lang, I can't even say the right words. Was she able to notice it kaya? Teka, I have to ask Dani. Pero baka magtaka yun. Maging issue pa ulit. Wag na nga, I'll just keep this photo. Pero grabee, iba talaga yung feeling kanina while standing next to her. She looks and smells so fresh kahit after the game. Whew Kiefer, ano nanaman ba to. Lagot ka na naman kay Trinca.

Mika

Days had passed and I found myself hoping that Kiefer will post our pic sa twitter. Everytime online ako, yun lagi ineexpect kong makita. Pero bakit nga ba, eh we don't even follow each other. And yeah, why would he post it in the very first place? And why the hell am I expecting such a thing to happen? Mika wake up. It was just a photo. That dude is not your type and your not his.

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Kiefer

It's Friday night. Trinca and I are having our candlelight dinner. We've been very busy with school stuff these past few days so I thought of inviting her for something that we don't usually do. Sa sobrang busy din niya, nakalimutan na niya ako tanungin about that game na muntik pa naming pinag awayan. Which is a good thing of course.

The place is awesome. Very intimate.

Trinca: Thanks for this Kief.

Kief: You're welcome, anything for you baby. Wait, let's take a pic.

Instead of asking the waiter to take a picture of us, nagselfie na lang kami. We had a few selfies. She said I should start posting na daw our pics. Before kasi, restricted pa. Just to avoid some issues. Lalo na at marami ng haters and bashers nowadays. She was picking which one to post, when unfortunately, nakita niya yung pic namin ni Mika. And she gave me that look. That look na parang kakainin na niya ako sa sobrang inis. She was about to say something. Pero alam ko na yun, so inunahan ko na.

Kief: Baby, it's not what you think. Obviously, fan picture lang yan. Gumaya lang ako kay Dani.

Trinca: Kief, why do you ever have to explain? It's okay.

(For a moment, I wasn't able to say anything. Did I hear it right? Hindi siya nagalit?)

Kiefer: You're not mad, or jealous at all?

Trinca: We talked about it na diba? You assured me na there's nothing to worry about. I realized also na I need to understand na love mo din ang volleyball, that's why you get to watch other games pag gusto mo. And besides, she's not your type Kief. And I trust you with that.

(Whew. Mixed emotions. Masaya na she didn't nag at me over this fancy dinner. Pero guilty pa din, coz now she's giving me her complete trust. And it's me who's not trusting how I really feel about her. )

The dinner went great. I took her home. As she was about to open the gate....

Kiefer: Thanks for trusting me Trincs. It means a lot to me.

Trinca: Do you love me?

(Ang bigat though. We've been dating for a few months now. I haven't told her that yet. Which makes me ask myself, why? So now, she's here being upfront, asking me if I do love her? What am I suppose to say?)

Kiefer: Trincs....I-I do...I love you.

Trinca: I love you too.

(Wow. Trinca just said that she loves me too. Which makes me wonder, did I just say that i love her? Kief, ano na, you're too messed up already. Say something....)

Kief: Which means??

Trinca: It's official Kief. I'm now making you the happiest guy ever.

(And she just hugged the hell out of me. And ako, di makapaniwala. In a way, shocked. And I don't even know if happy shocked or what. But it's there already. Trinca is my girlfriend now. I've been waiting for this for months now. Finally, kami na talaga.)

Kief

Was on my way home na. I'm definitely bothered. Trinca just said yes, but why the hell am I not rejoicing? But parang may mali? Gusto ko na lang makauwi so I can think things over.

Just when I arrived home, I checked my notifications. And Mika Reyes just followed me on twitter. Good Lord, bakit ngayon pa? My mind is sick and it's tired of figuring out things. What do i do now? I'm officially in a relationship with Trinca, but the girl in green won't make me sleep at night. She's been running thru my head even if it's Trinca who's in front of me. Coz from the moment i saw her, doubts were all over me. Kung gaano ako kasigurado kay Trinca dati, ngayon na kami na, tska naman ako naguluhan. And I know deep in my heart, that it's because of Mika.

Sa sobrang gulo na ng utak ko, di ko na napigilan. I followed her back. And para hindi obvious, finollow ko na rin ibang lady spikers like Abby and Melissa.

I need to calm. But the thing is, no one knows about my struggle. I need to shout this out, literally and figuratively. But first things first, I need to give my girlfriend a call.

Kiefer: I'm home babe. Thanks for tonight. And thanks for making me the happiest guy. I love you.

(And just like that, a tear fell from my eye for that biggest lie I ever told. Just coz I don't know what to do anymore, I gave in. With the thought of Mika's pretty face all over my mind.)

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My thoughts:

This is just a short update, struggle talaga. Next chapters will be Miefer's encounter na. Thanks for reading.

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