BENNY WATTS IMAGINES- The Queen's Gambit

Marrying you was a mistake- part 2

Warning: sensitive content

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Benny's Pov:

I put on my trenchcoat, hat and slung the duffle bag over my shoulder, ready to leave for LA. I couldn't stop thinking about what I had said to her and how I pushed her out of the apartment. Where is she gonna go? It's not like she had any close friends in New York. She's pregnant with my baby. OUR baby. I thought. I cleared my mind of the thoughts that were racing in it. Turning off the lights, I opened the door and stepped back with a startled expression when a police officer appeared out of nowhere. "Are you Mr. Watts? Mr.Benny Watts?" the bald officer asked, his face had a stern look, but I had a feeling that something was terribly wrong.

"Yes, it's me." I said, waiting for him to continue. "I'm here to inform you about your wife, Mrs.Y/n Watts. She met-" he tried to say something but I scoffed in annoyance. " So she came to you crying and whining over a small fight that we had." I said, immediately regretting it. The policeman stared at me with disbelief, like I was worst than the Satan himself. However, he continued," Sir, your wife met with an accident. She's taken to the hospital but she's really serious. A drunk man was driving a truck and hit her."

The tension in the room thickened and I dropped the bag off my shoulder, tears immediately welled up in my eyes. I never had so much regret in my life. Every word I said to her, everything I thought just turned into a huge burden of regret that would never go off my shoulders. "Wh- where is she? Please take me to her." I begged the man who was ready to help. He took me to the city hospital and even told me where she was admitted. Running towards the room, I pushed open the door. Doctors were standing around her, several tubes coming out of her nose and hands. There was blood everywhere. "Sir, you need to wait outside. " a nurse pushed me out, glaring at me for disturbing their operation.

"Please let me see her. Is she going to be okay?" I sobbed. " She's in a very critical condition. Right now she has three broken ribs, a collapsed lung and several deep cuts on her arms. She had already lost a lot of blood till they got her to the hospital. I can't say anything. I'm not sure if she'll survive but we'll try our best." the Nurse said, her eyes softened at my condition. "What about our baby?" I mumbled, looking deep in her eyes for answers. "We're sorry. We couldn't save your baby." she said. I kept my hand on the wall for support and sobbed. "I'm sure she'll be fine." the Nurse comforted me before going back inside the room. I should have never said that to our baby. I waited there for almost three hours, staring at the ground, my body aching with the regret in my mind. I needed her, she's my anchor.

It was almost 1am in the morning when the doctors came out, one of them walked towards me and I immediately rushed to her. "Is she okay, can I see her now?" I asked, hoping to hear something positive. The doctor sighed heavily," She will take time to wake up, her body is completely exhausted. We will check her tomorrow morning and then you can meet her." I nodded, knowing that I had no choice but to wait. I wanted to feel her hand in mine, tell her that I love her, tell her that I was sorry and that I never meant what I said. I don't know if she'll ever forgive me, it's all my fault, I shouldn't have accused her of something so sensitive, I shouldn't have let her leave. I slouched down on a chair in the waiting area, there's no way I'm leaving her alone. She's everything I've got.

Time skip to morning:

Benny's Pov:

"Mr. Watts?" I woke up to a voice who was calling me, shaking me by the shoulder. "Yes? Is she awake?" I immediately asked , standing up when I saw a nurse, the same one from last night. " She isn't awake but the doctor has checked on her. She's out of danger, you can visit her now." the Nurse smiled. "Thank you so much, for saving her, it means a lot to me." I said with tears in my eyes. She smiled and nodded before going back to her work. Without wasting another second, I sprinted till her room and pushed open the door quietly, making sure I wouldn't make much noise.

She was there, my love, my y/n, my wifey. She seemed peaceful, her chest rose and fell evenly. Even though she was wrapped up in bandages, she seemed comfortable. The constant low beeping monitored her heartbeats and her eyelids were closed lightly. I grabbed a stool and sat beside her. I gently grabbed her hand which was wrapped up in a bandage, the blood bag attached to a pole connected her soft hand via a tube. Tears blurred my vision and my lips trembled. She's so beautiful, so caring, so kind. And this is what I paid her back with. How am I going to look her in the eye. I've failed her.

Three days later:

Your Pov:

Your eyes flickered open. At first you saw  bright lights but then your pupils adjusted, making you see the ceiling. Trying to take in your surroundings, you tried to move but your body felt numb. A dull ache in your chest made it impossible for you to get up easily. Suddenly you heard a couple of faint sobs and you felt someone holding your hand. You immediately recognised his touch, it was Benny. His head was lowered, his eyes were puffy and there were dark bags underneath them. "Benny?" you said, your voice sounded harsh and you felt uneasiness in your throat. His head immediately shot up and he scooted closer to you.

"Love, how are you feeling?" he asked, concern laced in his tone. "I feel fine but my chest aches." you said. " I'm right here, I'll see what I can do." he got up, ready to leave and call the doctors but you didn't let go of his hand. "Stay." you mumbled. He looked at you and smiled, wiping away his tears. " How long was I out?" you asked. "Three days ,love." he said. Your other hand went to your belly but you were shocked to see nothing but a flat stomach. "Benny, I , I lost our-" your voice trembled and you broke into a fit of sobs. "Hey, baby, it's not your fault. Please don't do this to me, just calm down." Benny got up and placed a kiss on your forehead, comforting you.

" Love, please forgive me. It's all my fault. The baby, you, your emotions, everything I said and did. It's all because of me." he said, looking directly into your eyes. "It's okay, Benny." you said, trying to look somewhere else. "NO! It's, it's not okay. This isn't ok, look what I've done. How am I going to make it up to you?" he panicked, tears running down his cheeks. "Baby, just take me home, that's all I want." you said, cupping his cheek with your injured hand. "No, no, no, I'm going to be a good husband and a father. I'll do everything that you say and I'll never go on tournaments again." he said, holding your hand gently and kissing your small palm.

"Benny, chess is important, you can't leave it for me." you smiled but he wasn't ready to take it. "No, fuck chess. You're important, you're my wife, you deserve the world. I love you, I won't let you feel this way anymore, please forgive me?" he  pleaded. "I forgive you." you simply said and he smiled. "I got this for you..." he held your sparkling wedding band in between his fingers. "How did it-" you tried saying. "The police found it near you." he said. Taking your hand, he slipped it on your finger again and kissed your hand. "Thank you." you smiled. "No, thank you, y/n, for being my wife. Come home with me?" he asked. "Yes." you said and he got up from his stool to kiss you passionately.

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