BENNY WATTS IMAGINES- The Queen's Gambit

I can't breathe

Warning: Strong language, mention of death and panic attacks. Do not read it if you're easily triggered⚠️

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Y/n Harmon was at her home in Kentucky, playing chess with her childhood best friend, Benny Watts.

They had a beautiful relationship from the beginning, caring and having each others backs at all times. So nobody would be surprised if they said they had strong feelings for each other but were too scared to admit and ruin their strong friendship.

Benny was affectionate and protective, he knew almost everything about her, what she liked or disliked, her childhood habits and even what she was thinking about sometimes.

Apart from her only friend, Beth Harmon, her younger sister was all she had.

Y/n was only two years older but she always acted like Beth's mom. Making sure Beth got everything she needed and she had a comforting presence whom she could come to and share all her problems with.

'Hey, you cannot do that!' she exclaimed raising her hands in the air. Though y/n didn't love chess and played it only for the sake of Benny's feelings, she was pretty good at it.

'I can, and you've lost again. So gimme my twenty bucks.' Benny smirked.

Y/n huffed and reluctantly handed him the money. Then the blonde began to setup the chess board again for their third round while she glanced at the dark sky, it had started raining from the past half hour.

Something seems off about today...

She thought.

'Earth to y/n!' Benny snapped his fingers at her.

'Yeah, let's play.' she smiled.

'No, what's wrong?' he asked, looking concerned.

'Nothing...' y/n said.

'Come on love, I could practically sense the anxiousness around you.' he said.

'I don't know, just not feeling so good today.' y/n said in a low tone.

'Do you wanna go out for a ride then?' he suggested.

Y/n's eyes brightened and he chuckled when she nodded excitedly. Benny knew exactly how to cheer her up every time and never failed to do so.

'I'll go get changed.' she said, running upstairs.

Ten minutes later, she was back downstairs where she helped him to wear his coat and then she put his hat on her own head.

'Can I keep this, I'm in love with it.' she pleaded.

'You've been asking for it from the past two years, how about you defeat me at three consecutive games and then I'll let you keep it.' Benny smirked.

'No, you know that's impossible right?' y/n whined.

'Fine, you can keep it.' Benny chuckled and kissed her forehead.

Y/n carried an umbrella for them and opened the front door but was startled when she saw a police officer right behind it.

'I'm sorry to scare you miss, but I'm afraid you need to come with me.' he said, taking the service cap off his head.

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Twenty minutes later, y/n and Benny were running down the long corridor of the hospital, desperately searching for Beth.

'Where is she?' y/n asked a couple of nurses with tears cascading down her cheeks.

'Ms. Harmon is in a critical state. I'm afraid she's not going to make it.' the nurse said honestly.

Both Benny and y/n were utterly shocked and y/n controlled her breathing as she entered the room allotted for her younger sister.

There she laid, the broken form of her sister, bruised and almost lifeless.

'No' y/n mumbled, rushing to Beth's side.

'No, you can't do this to me.' Y/n cried, holding her sister's hand carefully.

'Why won't she wake up?' she asked. Her vision was blurred with her tears and she looked back at her best friend who knew what was about to happen.

Benny was frozen in his place, this was a horrible incident and he knew y/n wasn't ready to face it so soon and neither was he.

'Beth please, sweetie I love you just come back to me.' y/n cracked into a fit of sobs.

They heard the monitor beeping and the doctors arrived hurriedly to check on young Harmon.

They leaned over her and checked for a pulse, a heartbeat, anything that would indicate that the girl was alive but that wasn't the case.

Y/n had just lost her sister in a horrible accident and she wasn't prepared to accept it.

'Ms. Harmon, I'm sorry, she's no more.' the medical head said.

'You did nothing to save her!' y/n yelled at the team of doctors and advanced at them but Benny was quick enough to hold her closer to his chest.

'They did nothing!' she screamed in his arms, sobbing and thrashing to get to her sister but nothing worked.

Benny was hurt too, but he did what he had to. He carried y/n out of the room and held her in place.

'Let me go! Let me see her they're liars!' y/n yelled in his face and hit on his chest multiple times but that won't affect Benny at all.

Y/n was struggling to breathe and on top of that, she tried her best to get out of Benny's grasp.

'Please, she's my sister...' she said.

The girl stopped thrashing and loud sobs left her mouth and it hurt Benny to see her this broken.

Y/n felt like the world was closing on her, her vision blacking out and coming back, she couldn't breathe, she couldn't see and all she heard was her painful sobs and her loud attempts of sucking air in her lungs.

She almost dropped on her knees but Benny kept her safe in his arms.

'I- I can't breathe.' she said, choking on her own voice, it felt like someone was grabbing her throat.

'Hey love, I'm right here, look at me.' Benny quickly sat her on a chair and cupped her cheeks.

'Shh, just focus on me, okay. Try taking deep breaths, calm down.' he said, wiping the tears that were vigorously flowing down her cheeks.

'I can't-'

So in order to distract the girl, he did something that he wanted to do from so long. There was no way he was going to let anything happen to her.

He kissed her...

Just a simple, loving kiss that clearly showed her how much he loved her...

And when they pulled apart, y/n looked at him through her glossy eyes.

'Why did you kiss me?' she asked.

'Because I love you and I couldn't let anything happen to you.' Benny said, giving her a small smile.

She knew she loved him too, she wanted to kiss him back and say that she did love him but the situation was different. At the moment, Benny wasn't expecting an 'I love you' from her.

It wasn't about them, it was about Beth.

Benny let her stand once she was feeling better and then they hugged.

Y/n clutched his shirt, buried her head in the crook of his neck and cried her heart out on the chest of the man she knew she loved.

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