My Secret Credibility

Chapter 19

Clage been holding my hand for almost 2 hours kahit hindi ko sure kung 2 hours nga talaga kasi parang kasing tagal ng 2 hours niya hinahawakan ang kamay ko... which is hindi maganda kasi wala pa namang kami, hindi tama yun kasi hindi ko pa siya sinasagot, hindi niya dapat pwedeng gawin yung mga ginagawa ng mga couple, eh hindi naman kasi kami couple! Ito naman kasing sarili ko parang ginusto pa.

"Clage, Hold on. You've been holding my hand for such a long hour but I don't know how much time you're going to do this." Biglaan kong sinabi at agad niya binitiwan ang kamay ko. Finally.

"Oh. I didn't feel it." Sagot niya.

"Why?" Curious kong tanong at napatagilid ang ulo ko.

"Sabi nila kapag kasama mo ang taong mahal mo mabilis lumipas ang oras. Iyon kasi ang naramdaman ko siguro kaya hindi ko alam na matagal ko na palang hawak yung kamay mo tapos habang sa pakiramdam ko ay mga lima o sampung minuto lang ang nakalipas." Buntong hininga niya. "I guess... You still haven't fall for me kasi hindi mo pa alam yung feeling na sobrang bilis ng oras sa tuwing kasama kita o kasama mo ako."

Yeah, I don't know. It's just I don't like these kind of stuffs, it makes me uncomfortable.

"Oo. Hindi ko pa alam yung feeling na yan pero hindi ko naman sure kung mararamdaman ko pa yan." Bulong ko.

"May sinasabi ka ba?" Tanong niya.

"No, nothing. Let's go." Tumayo ako kaya tumayo rin siya.

"Let's go where? Babalik na tayo? Sabi na eh, ang bilis talaga ng oras--"

"No, Clage! I mean Let's go sa pasyalan na tinutukoy mo. I want to give you a chance para makapasyal pa tayo bago bumalik." Magana kong asal sa kaniya.

Tss. Akala niya wala na talagang pag-asa na makapasyal kami roon pero, the way he talks to me parang alam niya ang magiging desisyon ko at hindi ko inasahan na magkakatotoo iyon. He really tried to hope for sure he wants to be with me.

"Really, Zara? Do you really mean it? Or I just forced you?" He really thinks that kind of thoughts, huh?

"Do I look like I'm joking, Clage? I really mean it. I would also love to go there...with you." Sabay ngiti ko kaya napangiti na rin siya.

"If that was what you want then, Let's go." Sabay hawak niya ng kamay ko. "You said you want to go there, right? with me? You sure? while holding your hand again?"

Tss. He really wants to make sure that I really mean this. Bakit naman ako aayaw? Gusto ko pumasyal roon e. After all ikaw lang naman ang magiging kasama ko papunta doon kaya of course, I want to go there with you.

"Clage. You kept asking me that question, Once I've said it, I won't go back to my word anymore. So, Don't worry about it." I smiled.

"Then do me a favor." Seryoso niyang tono habang ako ay tumango. "Stop smiling at me while I'm being serious on you. It's just... you have the prettiest smile and it's suits to you so, you might ruined my serious mood, okay?"

Ngumisi ako't napa-isip rin. So, He's now being straightforward again. How could he say that I have the prettiest smile? Bampira kaya ako, may pangil ito, duh!

"You are really straightforward man that I know, Clage. Imagine, sa una ba naman nating pagkikita niyaya mong hawakan ko yung kamay mo o hahalikan mo ako. If that was the case... Fine, I won't smile but It depends on me, okay? I'm also going to straightforward to ask you this."

Iniisip ko sanang itanong ang lahat sa past ni Clage, sa mga dati niyang nakaraan. He helps me kahit hindi niya ako natulungan kanina pero I would want to know his past as well as I can. Gusto ko lang alamin kung saan past rin iyon ni Victoria sa kanilang tatlo ni Eydon. I've been really confused to their situation kahit wala ng ilalakad iyon... Talagang nais ko paring alamin. Isama narin natin yung nangyari sa paglason niya kay kuya ay nais ko rin alamin iyon.