My Secret Credibility

Chapter 31

"Anong sabi mo?"

Hindi ko alam kung ano ang mararamdaman ko ng nag-angat siya ng tingin sa akin. Nagtama ang paningin naming dalawa.

His eyes were telling the truth. I already can sense that.

"Mula sa matagal na panahon, Zara. Alam kong naghinala't napaisip ka pero, never mong pinangunahan 'yon. I like you it's because, I consider you as my cousin's friend. All of it was a lie, I like you as a woman. No matter how hard I try to move on, lalo lang lumalala. Napaisip ako na siguro kailangan kong aminin ito sa'yo dahil may karapatan ka namang alamin 'yon."

Napayuko ako sa kaniyang mga sinabi. Hindi ko alam pero, nakaramdam ako ng parang may tumusok sa aking puso. It's not because he's Gairel's cousin, kaibigan ko siya. Matalik na kaibigang lalaki.

"Geoneo... kailan pa?"

Humikbi siya sa akin, dahilan upang kabahan ako sa kaniyang ginawa. Bago pa man ay bigla na lang tumulo 'yong luha niya, "T-Tangina naman o..." rinig ko ang mabigat niyang paghinga habang nag-iwas na rin ng tingin sa akin, "Fuck, basta matagal na! Hindi mo lang maramdaman 'yon, ni hindi ko rin naman pinahalata 'yon e! T-Tangina lang kasi... a-alam kong wala kang gusto sa akin kaya ayaw kong ipakita 'yon sa'yo."

Sinubukan kong hawakan 'yong mga kamay niya ngunit, agad niyang inalis 'yon. Sinubukan ko ring habulin ang mga mata niya ngunit, hindi niya magawang tumingin ng diretso sa aking mga mata. Minsan niya lang ako nililingon pero, agad niya rin itong iniiwas sa kawalan.

"Stop it, Zara." he pursed his lips while he started to took my hands, "You're making this hard for me. Stop it, please. My mission is almost there, okay?"

"A-Almost completed." bulong niya ngunit, narinig ko 'yon.

Bumilog ang mga mata ko ng ma-realized 'yong ginawa niya sa akin.

His lips went into mine.

Shit! I kissed my bestfriend's cousin!

He held my waist to deepen the kiss while I just stood there. I feel his tears fell down to my cheeks, our nose also touched too. I couldn't move away... I just don't know why!

Hindi ko mapigilang pumikit na lamang dahil sa halik na 'yon. Hindi ko sinuklian ang halik niya kung hindi pumikit lamang at dinama ang halik na 'yon.

His lips was soft and fresh. I can feel his more tears falling increasingly down on my cheeks. I'm not crying but, it looks I am. I feel bad for Geoneo and the more intense feeling is... I can't do anything about his feelings.

I knew it from the start when we were on the hallway...

'We're just friends and no one can change our friendship. He will just like me as a friend, for sure. Many will fall for those who can withstand it but, for those who can... then, there is only one answer in our friendship. Our friendship is too strong when finally I realized it's not that strong...'

He dismissed the kiss then, he straightly looked at me.

"C-Confessing and kissing the girl I-I love the most a-are now..." his tears started to fall again, "...mission c-completed."

I didn't get what he meant but, he still left a kiss on my forehead which made myself smile...

A faked smile... indeed.