My Secret Credibility

Epilogue

"Surgery, Medicine, Anatomy, Neurology, Gynecology, Pharmacology, Pediatrics, Psychiatry, Ophthalmology, Otorhin, Olaryngology--"

"Stop it, will you?" Victoria cut me off, "Why don't you just help me to study all of it? I really want to be a good doctor as hell! Let's just study together."

I already know that she's not suitable for this job. For me, I dislike her as a doctor. Hindi siya pwede sa pwesto na ito, she's even have an overracting attitude and I hate it. I know that she's my ex, but that's not the issue for me anymore.

"No thanks, I can study by myself actually so do you. If you want to be a doctor, go for it. Just study and be a proffesional one, Vic." I said as I gave her an advice, "Oh right, Vic. Don't forget to pray as well, the Lord may help you and for sure, you'll be a doctor someday." I added as I teased her.

"Ugh! I hate you, Clage Aldrei De Leon! Mag-sama kayo ng ex-girlfriend mo!" she shouted, but I didn't care as I started to walked away like I didn't hear anything.

Pinapasakit lang niya ang ulo ko, lalo na kapag binabanggit niya si Zara. Sumasakit lang ang ulo ko sa tuwing pinapaalala niya ang babaeng pinakamamahal ko na iniwan ako sa isang hotel.

From once I got home, I removed my glasses as I swing myself to my swivel chair, closing my eyes for a while because of the fraustration that I felt. Fuck, dapat ay nag-aaral ako ngayon pero bakit humahatong ako sa ganito? Why am I still thinking her?

Bakit lahat ng mga gusto kong gawin ay hindi ko magawa? Bakit tila parang siya pa rin ang sinusunod ko? Na habulin ang aking pangarap bilang isang doktor?

'Kung may chance na magkita man tayong dalawa, nangangako akong isa na akong tunay na flight attendant at magiging parte na ako ng Delta Airlines. Sana gaya ko ay magiging mahusay na doktor ka rin. Happy 8th monthsary, my king... I love you so much from the bottom of my heart. I won't forget you, my king. Once again, chase your dream. Let's chase our dream together, okay? Chasing your dream is my always reminder to you.'

"Fuck," I whispered as I bite my lower lip, remembering a few detail letter she wrote to me.

For now, I studied hard even though my feelings was still suffering because of her. She only know how to hurt me easily and I couldn't forget how did she faked her smiles that time. I already knew that there is something wrong, once I saw her crying in the hotel.

Fuck, how could I didn't notice all of it?! Yes, she may be good at acting, but now I already know how did she do that and I'm so fucking stupid to not notice all of it!

I love her and I think this will be end soon, I just have to wait for more days, weeks and years so I can finally heal myself. All I have to do is focus on my carrier because being doctor is not easy at all.

"Pare, medyo matagal-tagal na itong nangyari pero sa tingin ko kailangan mo itong malaman." Prince spoked, but I just stayed quiet, "Muntik na kasing masagasaan si Zara noong naglalakad siya sa kalsada. Ano kasi... na-holdapan siya ng bag pero nahabol naman niya 'yon agad. Nakita ko kasi siya noon noong nasa cafe ako, naglalakad siya na parang wala sa mood."

I just sigh heavily as he said that. Oo nga pala, nasa Maynila na ako kung tutuusin dahil nandito ang ospital na gusto kong ma-pasukan. I just shook my head and drank the bottled of water. I don't have any plan pushing myself into her again, it will just distract my studies so I don't mind whether she's here or not anymore.

"So what? I don't care anymore, man. We're over and one more thing, just leave her alone please. 'Wag mo ng ugaliing i-kwento lahat ng mga nangyayari sa kaniya dahil wala na akong pakialam. Just worry about your own bussiness, man." I spoked.