My Superstar 0.2 (Ongoing)

MY SUPERSTAR 31

Ilang beses ko siyang pinagmasdan. Hindi ko alam kung bakit sila naghiwalay ni Carmi dati at kung paano ni Carmi nabilog ang ulo niya. Based on my research, he has a good scholastic record in one of the most prestigious universities here in Korea. Hindi ko rin alam kung anong dahilan niya kung bakit nagparetoke pa siya ng mukha? I have his pictures before he undergo a surgery and I can say that he's quite handsome.

"You are here again? What do you want from me?"

Hindi ko siya sinagot. Inilabas ko ang cellphone ko sa bag at pinarinig sa kanya ang recording ng paguusap namin ni Carmi.

"Should I feel pity for your ex-lover? He's trying to protect you. He's not even telling the truth. He admitted the crime that he's not the only one involved".

"It's not my fault if he's gullible enough to believe in me, Yuri".

"He believed in you because he loves you".

Nakita ko kung paano nagbago ang reaksyon ng mukha niya lalo na ng marinig niya ang mga sinabi ni Carmi tungkol sa kanya.

"She only used you. She didn't love you".

"No, that's not true. Carmi loves me. You're just doing this because you want to use me against her. I will not believe -- "

"You know what the reason why you're here in jail? Because you're dumb!"

Nagalit siya sa sinabi ko kaya bigla siyang lumapit sa rehas para abutin ako pero nilayo ko bahagya ang sarili ko kaya hindi niya ako nahawakan.

"I don't care if you're going to get mad but at least I am telling you the truth and if you don't believe in me, then, it's not my problem anymore. You're here in jail saving Carmi's ass while she's enjoying her freedom outside. Do you think it's fair?"

Hindi ko inaasahan na bigla siyang magiging emosyonal. I can see hardship through his eyes. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nakaramdam ako ng awa sa kanya. I shouldn't feel this way.

"Carmi and I are lovers since we were in middle school but we broke up when she decided to pursue her dream to become an actress. Break up is just a normal 'on and off' scenario in our relationship because we did it so many times before. We have a lot of fights but we always end up with each other. Our last break up was the hardest one for me, until, I heard from her friend that she's dating a famous idol. I tried to talk to her and win her back but she told me, right in front of my face, that she didn't love me anymore and she already loves someone else".

I shouldn't feel bad for him. Kasi ginusto niya ang bagay na 'yon. Naging masama siya dahil naging mapusok siya sa nararamdaman niya.

"I got insecure to Jin. I envied his life. I envied his career. I want to have his life and his wife, which is my ex-lover. I should be the one in his position if Carmi didn't meet him".

You will never feel insecure and jealous if you are confident enough in yourself, and the people around you have the biggest impact in your life -- especially if you are loved and accepted by your family and friends, you will never feel that you lack of some aspects.

"How's your relationship with your family?"

Hindi ko alam kung sasagutin niya ako sa tanong ko. Nararamdaman ko na malaki ang parte ng pamilya niya kung bakit siya nakakaramdam ng insecurities sa sarili niya.

I saw the bitterness in his smile. Mas lumakas ang hinala ko na hindi nga maayos ang relasyon niya sa pamilya niya.

"My parents will always look at me like I am their greatest regret". Sinusubukan niyang tumawa pero hindi niya kayang ikubli ang lungkot sa mga mata niya.