My Superstar 0.2 (Ongoing)

MY SUPERSTAR 23

My eyes will not get enough how breathtaking is the scenery. It's really cold since winter is approaching but the cold couldn't stop me appreciating the thick lush green plants and the foggy atmosphere of the place like we're on top of the clouds. When was the last time I am able to breathe and be calmed like this? Is it really the place that made me not worry about what the future brings or maybe because of the person I am with right now? Napangiti ako ng maramdaman ko ang mga braso niya sa katawan ko. He rested his chin on my shoulder. Maaga akong nagising para pagmasdan ang buong farm. Tulog pa siya kanina ng bumangon ako.

"Are you not getting cold?"

"Nah. It's cold but I don't want to miss this opportunity in seeing this beautiful paradise right in front of my eyes".

"Do you want to live in a place like this?" I'm a city girl. Lumaki ako sa siyudad at noong nagaral ako sa London mas lalo kong niyakap ang pamumuhay sa ganoong paraan. I started to appreciate living in a countryside when I moved in Siargao to manage our resort. Living in a city is like getting the perks to experience the things that independent people usually do -- party, hang out, shopping, etc. However, it's more tranquil to live in a country side. Somehow, it gives you peace of mind and calm your worries.

"I would love to but the status I am having right now will not let me do it. Maybe, someday if I already found my happiness". Mapakla akong napangiti ng sinabi ko yon hanggang sa naramdaman ko ang paghigpit ng yakap niya sa akin.

"Can we just stay like this? Away from everyone, just you and me. Can we? Because when I am with you, I don't need to worry for what future brings. People dream to have beautiful house, luxury car and all the things that money can buy but when I'm with you, I feel like you're more than enough rather than with those things". Hinawakan ko ang braso niya at inalis ito sa pagkakapulupot sa bewang ko. Humarap ako sa kanya na may pilit na ngiti sa mukha.

Sana dati pa, Jin. Sana dati pa. Sana ako ang pinili mo. Sana tayo ang magkasama ngayon.

"You're already married".

"I'm not happy with her anymore. The reason why I asked you to have a vacation with me because I felt like staying next to her is perished. There are a lot of things I discovered about her when I got to know her more. She's not the same woman I've met before. She changed a lot and I don't know why, until I realized the love I feel for her is not that profound". Ibinalik ko ang atensyon sa luntiang kapaligiran. Papasikat na ang araw. Bagong umaga at mga bagong alaala ang mabubuo dito sa lugar na to.

"You easily give up, Jin". Mapakla akong napangiti. "You just stay in the relationship once it benefited you but if it's not, you easily let go. I think that's one of our opposite sides". Napabuntong hininga ako at nilanghap ang sariwang hangin.

"I've seen you being admired by everyone, all eyes are on you because of how goodlooking and talented you are, I've also seen you during on your lowest point. I was always there for you even in between. I always stay in the crowd watching and cheering for you. I want to tell everyone 'Hey! That's my man up there!!' but for sure no one will believe me. Remember your concert in London? You catched a cold because of the freezing weather and that's the reason why you lost your voice right before your solo stage but you still perform. I also lost my voice the following day because that night I didn't stop screaming how much I love you. That's the only way I can show you my full support -- that I'm willing to endure bad days too so that you will not feel alone. I have loved you so much -- so much to the point of killing myself gradually for your happiness until nothing's left for me". Damn these tears that wasn't shown for year. Mahina parin ako pagdating sa kanya.