My Superstar 0.2 (Ongoing)

MY SUPERSTAR 9

I started to strum my guitar the moment I saw the spotlight was on me. Music can heal people that's what they said but why it can't heal me? How many songs do I need to sing to heal my heart? How many melodies do I need to hum to ease this pain? I tried to sing the song even I sounded out of tune. Maybe because of the alcohol.

I see your face in my
mind as I drive away,
'Cause none of us thought it
was gonna end that way
People are people,
And sometimes we change our minds
But it's killing me to see
you go after all this time

Music starts playing like
the end of a sad movie,
It's the kinda ending you
don't really wanna see
'Cause it's tragedy and it'll
only bring you down,
Now I don't know what to
be without you around

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy
Never a clean break,
no one here to save me
You're the only thing I know
like the back of my hand,

I felt the tears on my cheeks but I didn't mind wiping it away. Wala akong pakialam kung sintunado ako tutal hindi naman nila ako kilala. Wala naman nakakakilala sakin dito. I don't mind getting wasted because tomorrow it's a different story again.

And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to

Never wanted this, never
wanna see you hurt
Every little bump in the road
I tried to swerve
People are people,
And sometimes it doesn't work out,
Nothing we say is gonna save
us from the fall out

And we know it's never simple,
Never easy
Never a clean break, no one
here to save me
You're the only thing I know
like the back of my hand,

I'm hurting but nobody knows. I'm struggling but it won't show. I'm strong but I'm fragile. I want to love but my heart was torn apart. I want to live but my life is in a complete mess. Since I went out from the prison..they thought a monster grew within me but the truth is..I just want to be happy.

And I can't,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to,
Breathe,
Without you,
But I have to

It's 2AM
Feelin' like I just lost a friend
Hope you know this ain't easy,
Easy for me

I stop singing. Pakiramdam ko kahit pa makaganti ako sa mga taong nagpahirap sakin hindi parin ako magiging masaya. Iniisip ko pa lang nasasaktan na ako. The crowd became silent the moment they hear m crying. I want to rewind my life and pause it the time when I still have my parents. During those times when my life is not yet complicated. Gusto kong bumalik sa buhay na ganon pero punong puno na ng galit ang puso ko at hindi ko na alam kung pano pa tumigil.

"Put me down"..someone lifted me. I tried to punch his face but I can't even reach it. My vision got blurry and I can't even recognize him. Akala ko bouncer ng club ang bumitbit sakin palabas pero ng dumiretso kami sa parking lot bigla na akong kinabahan kaya nagpumiglas na akong makatakas at makababa.

"It's Jin"..tinanggal niya ang suot niyang facemask at ang baseball cap niya. Mas lalo akong nainis ng makita ko siya.

"Put me down"..utos ko sa kanya.