My Part-Time Job

MP-TJ. #45.

No proofread. So I'm sorry for typos and grammar errors.

Enjoy, though.

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I saw the way his eyes twinkle with every bit of happiness. I saw the way his lips curve up into a smile. I saw the way how could a simple lie, from me, could make him this happy.

And that- I couldn't take more of this. This is the last thing I needed for me to make it all stop.

"T-Toby, I-I'm s-sorry..." I gently said.

His happy face turned into a frown.

"What--"

"I-I c-can't--- N-No-- S-S-Sorry..." I fell down into my knees and hugged him.

Sa oras na ito, ito lang yung tanging magagawa ko. Ito lang muna yung tama.

"K-Kassie?--"

Sobbing really hard, I still managed to answer him back.

"S-Sorry T-Toby... B-B-But I c-can't marry y-you."

Pain and confusion was painted on his face.

"W-Why?"

So, I told him everything.

I know that he knew about my past part-time job and about Rence. But he doen't knew about Lance and he has the right to know.

When I finished, I was really crying so hard I thought that I was going to black-out.

Now, he hates me. That's the same mantra I keep on chanting on my head which makes me cry even more.

"Kassie, sshhh. It's gonna be okay." He said while leaning in and hugging me.

How could I get so lucky? He just don't deserve to be with someone as dirty as me.

I forced my tears to stop.

"I'm really s-sorry Toby, I just don't d-deserve you."

He sighed.

"You just love him." He blurted out.

I gaped at him.

How did he know?

"I noticed, Kassie. Everytime you say his name or mention everything that has to do with him, your eyes would sparkle and your face would lit up in pure happiness."

I sniffed.

"So... Y-you're not angry with me?" I asked him.

He smiled at me, but doesn't quite reach his ears, and shook his head.

"No, Kassie." He smiled, sadly.

I looked at him in the eye and noticed that his eyes are somewhat glassy.

Now, I feel guilty.

"I'm sorry..." I begin to sob again as I hugged him.

"Ssshhh..." he stroked my hair. "How could I take you away from your lifetime happiness? You found yours, Kassie. I'm not that selfish to not let you go."

I sobbed again on this shoulder.

One day, he will find a girl who's gonna love him more than I did. Whom he's gonna love more than he ever did to me.

I'm just his mistake.

I'm a mistake. Always will.

"Maybe it's time that I find mine, as well."