August [j.p]

003- Five whole minutes

And it took you five whole minutes
To pack us up and leave me with it
Holdin' all the love out here in this hall
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exile (feat. Bon Iver)

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Dear August,

My sincerest apologies for taking so long to respond to you.
(That's me hoping that being formal will make you forgive me)
Si vouz plez. Did I spell that right? Probably not.
I know that we never really had the "talk" or defined our relationship status so maybe it's time to just rip the bandaid off and come out with it.
Crossing over into the dating area isn't something I'm ready for and I'm not ready for long distance either.
I'm sorry if I led you to believe otherwise.
School is the same as always. Mind numbingly boring and I am now the biggest thirdwheel in all of history. No one really warned me how strange it would be when your best mates start dating. But they're happy, so I'm happy.
Do write back when you can.
With love,
James
P.S look after my Quidditch jersey or I will smash your piano with my broomstick when we're home.

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James,
I'm glad we've established our "status"
I hope my owl hasn't dropped your jersey somewhere in the ocean.
Yours,
August.

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James Potter wasn't oblivious and that is why when Marjorie, August's owl, dropped off a letter that only had two sentences scrawled on it along with his red and gold Quidditch jersey he knew that she didn't hold him of very high regard anymore.

Unfortunately there wasn't much the boy could do, she was in another country and from what he knew about her, he knew that when August Williams was mad, she tended to stay mad.

The fact that some weight had been lifted from his shoulders couldn't be denied. As the days stretched since his first meeting with the blonde he felt lighter and was able to fully revel in the attention of Lily Evans and the other Marauders.

Sirius and Remus were still going strong halfway through the term and if anything they had only become more unbearable. Often when they thought James and Peter were asleep they would crawl into one another's beds and make out.

James was happy for his two friends but he couldn't help but feel a bit left behind. Dating in the friend group was uncharted territory and everyone was still trying to figure out the odds and ends of it.

Peter was good company but it just wasn't the same as Sirius and Remus. James knew that Peter felt the same.

Regardless the four boys still managed to pull of legendary pranks, like dying the Slytherin's robes pink, jinxing Snivellus so that he could only curse for a day and charming the utensils in the great hall to always slip out of anyone who grabbed them's hands.

James had successfully been on three Hogsmeade trips with Lily, one of which she kissed him on the cheek.

Things we're looking good for James Potter, but there was a small part of his heart that felt as if it was all the way in the Pyrenees.

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August Williams was over the moon when she saw the Potter owl fly her way.

Although they didn't show it, August knew that Lori and Sadie were dying to know what James Potter finally responded. The ultimate giveaway was Sadie completely missing her mouth with her spoon causing all of her cereal to drip down onto her blue robes.

August's smile quickly fell when she read the contents of the letter. She sat in the elegant dining hall with its small, round tables and plush chairs, rereading the letter . Not believing that James Potter only saw her as a friend.

The bastard had seen her naked.

She spent that night, and the nights following crying into her pillow thanking Merlin that she didn't say 'I love you' to James Potter.

At least she could still walk away with a shred of dignity.

Like the days before James Potter stumbled into her life, she had to put on a smile that didn't quite reach her eyes and laugh empty laughs at classmates and friends.

Sadie and Lori saw the bloodshot eyes and the under-eye bags but she would be forever grateful that they didn't comment on it. All they did was help her charm them away and squeeze her between them. Sometimes it's the small things that help more than the big things.

How August longed to be good enough for once. She had never been good enough despite her efforts. Somewhere along the lines of trying so hard she felt as if she lost herself. The girl before everything.

How quickly James had left her behind. Did he even know how much their summer meant to her. For him it was just a summer activity, something to cure the boredom of his small town. But to her it meant the world. He didn't love her but she adored him.

It was two weeks after she got James' letter that she finally decided to write him back.
It was her way of ending a chapter. A very short chapter. But a chapter nonetheless. One full of hurt and happiness. The only problem was that she didn't really know how to differentiate the hurt from the happiness yet.

A/N
sorry my loves, these are just short chapters for now and they don't feel really exciting but i kind of have to build up to the drama. Please stick around i have such exciting stuff planned.
Xxx