Best Friends

37 Just You Wait

Tom's POV
I saw Lexi walking across the landing. It was just tipped into early morning and as creepy as it was I watched her walk to the bathroom. I didn't want to scare her. Her emotional state was worrying me and I decided to wait on the landing for her to come out so I knew she was okay. I didn't hear anything from the other side of the door and after about half an hour she still hadn't come out
"Lexi" I said softly before knocking lightly on the door "Lex are you alright" she still didn't answer and I started to worry "I'm gonna get the key alright?" I fumbled about in the small cabinet attached to the landing wall and eventually found the spare key waiting for a few moments to see if she would open the door. Despite my shaky hands I managed to unlock it and I couldn't shake the thought that I would find something similar to what Adam found when Dom attempted. I knew that it wasn't that bad but I thought the same about Dom and look where that got me. Sat at home worrying while Adam waited at the hospital seeing if our best mate was gonna die or not.
"Lexi I'm coming in now" I slowly opened up the door giving her time to resist if she truly was uncomfortable. I looked down to see her fast asleep curled up on the bathroom floor and let out a sigh of relief. She was clutching something and although I couldn't get a clear view I knew exactly what it was

Lexi's POV
"Lexi? Lexi darlin' ya can't sleep there" I groaned and instinctively pulled the pregnancy test closer to me. I fully intended to go back to sleep right there but I soon felt Tom's arms pick me up and the somewhat calming smell of his aftershave on his neck "You've got to go sleep somewhere else"
"Don't take me back to Dom"
"Don't worry. I wont. You can come bunk with me in your old room."
"Okay." I mumbled closing my eyes. I wasn't asleep though. I still had a sense of unease and it wasn't until he brought me into the room and closed the door that I let out a sigh of relief and calmed down. He didn't out me down there though he carefully carried me over to the bed and laid me down
"Give it here. I'll put it somewhere safe" I shook my head and pulled it closer to myself
"It's positive. What if Dom sees it?"
"I'll make sure to hide it real good. Okay?"
"Okay" I said still unsure but handing him the test anyway. He moved over to the other side of the room and came back not long after
"You just gonna stay on top of the covers and freeze?" I didn't answer quite frankly still in shock over it all. I didn't feel pregnant. But I'd never known what being pregnant felt like. Maybe I was just being crazy "Lexi are you alright?" He said sitting on the edge of the bed
"No." I answered truthfully.
"Lexi I know it's hard-"
"No you don't" I said starting to cry and giving up already on keeping it in "Tom I'm having a fucking baby. I'm can't be a mum. I'm a huge fuck up I can't raise another human"
"Hey." He said his tone still soft but with a sense of urgency "You are not a fuck up. And I know you can raise this baby. If that's what you choose to do."
"How do you know that" I turned over my back now facing him "I don't fucking know"
"I just do" he said laying down beside me both of us still on top of the duvet with clearly no intention to just go to bed and forget about it
"How do you know?"
"Cus you care about other people. More than I think you should to be honest. You always put family first above anything. Even if that family isn't blood. And you have such a big heart because of everything you've been through. You don't ever want anyone to hurt the way you did. And I know you'll do everything to be there for this baby. If there even is a baby in there."
"You really think that?"
"Yeah. I wouldn't lie. I don't think it would be fair in a situation like this to lie about that"
"Maybe there's not a baby."
"Well either way I'll still be there for ya."
"Why?"
"Because I fuckin love ya. And I think that I should probably tell you that more. But it's not about that." He got up off the bed "What it's about right now is you going to sleep" he somehow managed to pull the duvet from beneath me which cause me to get rolled over on the bed and giggle. He layed the duvet back down but this time over me and made sure to carefully tuck it around me so I felt safer
"How'd you know?"
"What do you mean?"
"How'd you know that's how I like to be tucked in when I'm anxious"
"You told me one time. When you were drunk on tour that you were sad you didn't have enough space in the bunk to do it"
"Wow. You really listen to everything don't you?"
"Yep."
"So I tell you a lot"
"I really love you. So fucking much. You're my family" he mocked making me giggle at him "I think you should get some sleep now lex."
"Will you come stay with me?"
"Lex. I can't"
"Why?"
"It's not my job I just help out sometimes I'm not the one you come to for that" it hurt a little hearing him so unsure of himself
"What do you mean your job? You don't have to cuddle or nothing. I just sleep better if someone is there" he opened his mouth to provide a counter argument but instead let out a sigh. He got into the bed besides me but kept his distance and it was only when he was close by I could noticed he had been slightly panicked "Night then" I turned over once again facing my back to him. After a few moments of him clearly stressing out he moved closer and became the big spoon. I smiled at how he instantly calmed down and before I could say something I could soon hear his soft breathing indicating he either was or was about to fall asleep
"Night Tom" I whispered. He was still sleepy but he pulled me closer to him and held his hands on my stomach underneath my shirt. It was innocent and with the way it calmed both me and him down I didn't bother to move him. I knew when he woke up he'd let go but it didn't stop me revelling in the feeling. It felt so safe. Like he was protecting me and the potential baby inside me too. He was just the sweetest man alive deep down really. Well... One of. And I loved him so much even if he didn't always know how to express it back. I closed my eyes and smiled "Hey kid" I whispered softly "If there is a little you inside me you're gonna have the best uncles ever. Just you wait"