Best Friends

70 Talk

I got out of the shower with the towel wrapped around me and I suddenly felt tom hug me tightly from behind.
"I'm sorry" he mumbled into my neck
"Let me get ready and we can go for a walk. Like I said. Talk things through."
"But it's weird isn't it?'
"What's weird?" I asked as I pulled away and began picking out clothes from my case
"Talking about how you had sex with your best friend."
"If it had been anyone else but me you wouldn't have worried about that"
"I know. But I don't wanna fuck this up Lexi. You are the most important person to me right now. And I'm scared it's gonna blow up in our faces."
"It's fine."
"I'll meet you outside yeah? Need some fresh air."
"Okay. I'll be down as soon as."
"Alright." He said nodding "Be quick though. Or ill-"
"Get worried? I know. I won't be long."
"See you down there." He looked nervous so I gave him a hug properly this time "I love ya lex."
"I know."

"Can I put you down now?"
"I suppose. Here's a good spot for us to eat anyway" I pointed to the patch of grass we were stood next to and jumped down off Tom's back "you sure you don't want some of my pasta?" I asked as I got it out of the bag
"No. I'm fine. You eat it." He sat down facing me "Can we talk now? About what happened"
"Yeah sure." I put the pasta back in the bag and looked over at him. He took a deep breath.
"If we do this I want you to know that you mean way more to me than that. More than just someone who I have sex with. You will still be my best friend and the most important thing in my life. You understand?" He kept his voice quiet because he knew that people who knew who we were would surely be nearby.
"I understand."
"Good." He looked down and didn't say anything else instead finding great interest in the grass beneath him
"Do you want to do this? Cus I can't expect you to go along with it just cus I am."
"Yeah. I do. It's just awkward to talk about ain't it." I chuckled and layed down looking up at the clouds
"It's fine. We don't need to talk about it."
"You sure?"
"Positive. We've done enough talking" he laid down too with his head at my feet "Can we call Adam? And maybe Mikey but I don't know cus that means leaving Dom alone. I wanna make it a good trip for a few days. And I'll help pay."
"I'll text him."
"Can we call him? Talk to him about it?"
"How about we get there. And I'll text him. And he can come round on the second day?"
"Yeah. Okay." He put his hand on my leg and stroked his thumb over it lovingly
"Stop worrying darlin'." I got up and laid back down this time alongside him our shoulders touching "were goin tomorrow morning. So I'll message him then. And he will probably come over in the afternoon."
"Thanks. I know you wanted it to be just us."
"Last time I checked that was you"
"Shut up Tom." I said rolling my eyes and laughing at him "I just miss how it used to be. I wanna go home."
"It will all work out. And you and Dom are gonna get back together."
"I don't know about that. But I know I don't want it to be how it is."
"You and me against the world for now. I guess." I smiled and buried my face in his shoulder
"Thanks for being there. Don't know what I'd do without you"
"Awe. Cut the sappy shit lex. Let's eat that pasta cmon" I giggled and let go so we could both sit up "But on a serious note I don't know what I'd do without you either."

He was fast asleep lay on the bed. I'd cuddled up with him lying my head on his chest and ended up stuck there for fear of waking him. I needed to go to the toilet though so I gently pulled away and pulled the blanket over him in hopes the warmth would replace mine.
"Love you" he mumbled before drifting back off to sleep. I got up, grabbing my phone, and went to the bathroom quickly doing my business before sighing heavily at myself in the mirror "Come back to bed" Tom groaned wrapping his hands around my waist and resting his forehead on my shoulder closing his eyes
"Tom I don't want to. Mind if I go out?"
"Just text me when you're on your way back." He said before kissing my cheek and disappearing back into the bedroom. I smiled stroking my hand across my cheek where he kissed me. I soon snapped out of it and realised that, with shoes on, what I was wearing didn't look too bad and it could pass for clothes. I waited a while before leaving the bathroom hoping that Tom had fallen back to sleep. He did and I threw a pair of slides on before venturing out of the hotel room. The floor we were on had a small balcony so I walked down the hallway and went out onto it, sitting down on the cold floor and face timing Adam.
"Don't make it a regular thing disturbing my sleeping"
"Are you on your own?"
"Yeah why?" He stood up and I heard him close the door before walking back over to his bed and turning the lamp on. I could see his face more clearly now
"I want you to come meet us at the hotel tomorrow. But I don't want the rest to know where I am so can you just lie."
"That's not it and you know it's not."
"Still want you to do it though. Just say you've got to go home for a bit. Tom booked you a room and everything."
"Okay. But what else did you want to say?"
"Nothing." I lied. All courage to at least tell one other person had melted away "Just miss you."
"Are you outside?"
"Yeah. Needed a break to breathe. I'm on a balcony though. And the hotels closed guests only. I'm safe."
"Good. I'm glad your safe. But can you please go back inside?"
"Yeah" I agreed. He seemed shocked which made me chuckle "You're worried. It's not good for you to worry about me."
"I'm gonna go back to sleep alright? But you can talk to me whenever you feel comfortable to tell me the other thing yeah?" I nodded
"Bye."
"Love you. Bye lex" he hung up and left me alone to walk in silence back to my hotel room. I opened the door and smiled as Tom was still asleep. I made sure I was quiet when kicking my shoes off and climbing into the warm confines of the opposite bed. The day had been a weird one and the feeling of the warm covers was welcome
"Tom?"
"Night lex" he mumbled "Don't worry about me. Get some sleep."
"I love you." He chuckled slightly
"You too."