Best Friends

83 Tell Her You Love Her

"hey stranger" he whispered down my ear whilst I was stirring my mug of hot chocolate.
"Dom!" I exclaimed brightly jumping up at him as he hugged me tight "where's the rest of them?" He let me go and backed up leaning against the kitchen cabinet opposite
"Just me today. I've come to talk to you. Well I want to talk with you. It's not all my opinion."
"I forgive you."
"It's not about that. It's about you coming home."
"I can't do that right now."
"Why?"
"Because Tom won't come. And I'm not ready to leave him right now. I hope you understand."
"I get it. Where is he?" I didn't answer him and his mind immediately went somewhere I wasn't expecting "Lex? Is he okay?"
"Yeah. He's fine. He's Tom. He'll be alright. I think."
"You don't sound too sure."
"I'm not. I told him I hope he doesn't come back. What if he actually does that. Not come back."
"I can stay here with you until he does. And if he's not here later, and that's a big if because I know he'll be back here by tonight, I will get the boys out looking for him."
"I need to come too. I know you wanna keep me safe but I need to come too so I can talk to him. I'm scared Dom. Really scared"
"Did you tell anyone else?" He asked walking over and enveloping me in a warm hug. I shook my head "Why? They're here to help?"
"Because I sent him away. So it's my fault."
"No it's not. He's probably going through a hard time. Me and you fought a lot when I first brought you back because you'd only let me take care of you. Maybe he's just feeling the pressure of being the only one. Or maybe he feels pushed out."
"I didn't think of that"
"Mum's in the living room watching TV. We could go sit in there? Might take your mind off it."
"I'll try."
"Good girl. Now dry your eyes cus that pretty face don't deserve tears." He pulled me away from him and gently wiped my tears away with his thumb. He paused, looking at my face for a moment before snapping out of it and walking away
"What was that?" I asked
"Nothing. Just me being stupid."

"He's not back yet" I whispered. We'd basically been sat in the living room all day with the exception of mum making us go get food at the dining table. We'd just sat in our seperate spots having not interacted since the hug earlier in the day "It's getting later and I'm scared"
"I know. I sent Adam out to go look for him about two hours ago"
"And you didn't think to tell me?"
"No because I didn't want to get your hopes up." I calmed down and nodded
"Sorry." I mumbled realising his intentions were pure enough
"It's alright. It's completely understandable that you're worried. But I promise I'll let you know if they tell me anything." He lifted up his arm and motioned for me to move over and cuddle into his side. I shook my head lightly and looked down "No need to be like that. It's okay. I'm not gonna make you. I know things aren't exactly normal right now."
"I think mum's gone to bed"
"Everyone's gone to bed. But we'll stay up as long as you want yeah?"
"Promise?"
"I promise"

Tom's POV
"When you go in there you apologise to that poor girl" Adam instructed from the front seat
"But I was feeling like I had nowhere to go adam. It's hard being the only one to care for her"
"I know. But she's relying on you Tom. And you let her down"
"Adam I can't be the one she relies on every single fucking day. It hurts. She's so broken and I'm the only one that can fucking help her and...oh"
"Yeah. Oh."
"I get what you're saying now."
"Look mate. I'm not gonna say what you're doing is easy but you're the only one she lets in. And I need you to keep her fucking alive" he slammed his hand down and spoke the last words louder "Do you understand me?"
"Adam do you wanna talk-"
"I said do you understand me?" He shouted
"Yeah"
"Good. Now go inside and scoop her up into a hug and tell her you fucking love her." He paused for a moment collecting himself "And don't mention where I found you."
"Adam I wasn't going to-"
"Shut up!" He's constant change in volume and tone confused the hell out of me "Do not mention it."
"Alright. I won't."
"Good. Now go on. I haven't texted Dom so she doesn't know you're here." I noticed as I clambered out that he had tears in his eyes but I didn't bring it up. I knew what he thought. I knew that he thought I was gonna die. But it truly wasn't what I wanted at all. I was just out and sat by the bridge because it was quiet. But I knew he was scared.
"You coming in mate?"
"No. I'm staying out here." I nodded and turned my back to walk inside "Tom?" He said a little louder so I could hear him "I'm sorry. I know that it was nothing like that. I just-'"
"It's alright. I'm gonna go do as you said. I'll send her love from you too yeah?"
"Yeah?"

Lexis POV
The door opened and Tom soon walked into the living room looking sorry for himself. I put my arms up and without question he picked me up and sat down on the chair with me wrapped tightly around him
"Adam found me. Went for a walk but I kind of got lost so I was quite far out."
"I shouldn't have sent you away"
"Sweetheart it was my stupid decision." He kissed the top of my head and brought me closer under his chin "I thought you'd be okay but boy was I fucking wrong"
"Of course you were. I don't like being without you Tommy. It breaks me every time."
"Adam sends his love. He's uh outside if you wanna go out Dom?"
"Can I stay?" Dom asked. Tom nudged me for a response and Dom laughed a little
"Sure."
"Lexi I love you so fucking much. But Adams outside and I scared the shit out of him. I think he needs ya more."
"Tom can we talk. Properly. Because I'm scared if you don't talk to me then I'll lose you."
"She chose to stay with you." Dom spoke up "I know it doesn't seem that big of a deal but she's never chosen to stay away when we made up. Just talk to her." His voice was breaking "Please just fucking talk to her because you mean everything to her." Tom was silent for a minute "I'll go."
"No. Stay. I'm gonna go speak to adam