Best Friends

92 Dying To Say Those Things

"you tired?" Tom asked me. I nodded and reached out to hold his hand whilst I was resting on his shoulder "Not long now. Just ten more minutes then we're back home."
"Didn't expect us to be out all day. Thought it was just pizza"
"Wanted to treat ya didn't we?" Adam piped up
"Thought you needed it." Michael added "It's been shit for you but we wanted to let you know we were still here."
"Thanks guys. I love you both."
"Ooh she's getting all lovey without the alcohol" Mikey joked "What on earth are we gonna do Adam?"
"Shut up Michael" I said rolling my eyes but still smiling "You know I'd hurt you if you weren't driving."
"I get it though. I love you too." He said sweetly and I smiled even wider "But seriously you being all lovey like this is weird. You usually just cuddle and don't speak."
"Whatever Mike." I cuddled into Tom and spoke quietly "Enough time for me to nap?"
"It's probably gonna be short but yeah" he kissed my cheek gently "You go to sleep and I'll wake you up when we get home"

Tom's POV
"She doesn't want to move out" I said. We'd stopped the car already but none of us wanted to wake her "She likes it here. And I do too."
"We can go back to the house. And leave you guys here?" Adam suggested. He looked to Mikey who nodded in agreement
"Don't leave her. She loves having you around. And I know it's not ideal but can ya do it for her?"
"Don't know why you're pleading for." Mikey joked "We got it made. Sam treats us like family." I smiled and nodded
"Look, Tom, I'm sorry for what I said but you know we don't just stay here for Lexi right?"
"Yeah." He nodded
"I heard my name" Lexi mumbled clearly waking up "We still on the road?"
"No. None of us wanted to wake you. But we're going inside now so you can go to bed"
"No. I'll stay downstairs with you guys. It's not really late is it?" I looked at my watch
"No darlin'. It's just gone nine."
"We've been gone ages mum's gonna worry"
"No she won't. She trusts us." I said carefully avoiding mentioning the fact they'd argued
"Wanna bet?" She challenged
"Well you know her best. But to find out we gotta get out of the car"
"Oh. And by the way" Mikey started "I know you two fucked"

Lexis POV
"Lexi." She said coming over to me and immediately embracing me "I thought you were going out for a couple hours. I got worried. I called and you didn't answer."
"We put all our phones in the glovebox. That was Adams stupid idea." The boys left us to it and just walked into the living room like nothing was going on
"I'm sorry. I've been dying to say those things for a while." At that point I hugged her back "It just really hurt that you left like that. And I was mad and-"
"Shut up mum. It's fine."
"Justin wants to teach you how to play your guitar. You up for that?" She pulled away and cocked her head to the side slightly waiting for a response
"Course I am."
"I'm really proud of you."
"Proud of me?"
"Yeah. I'm proud of you for moving past it all. You know he talks about you as one of his own. He did after you left. A lot. And when you guys talked outside."
"Why was he talking about me anyway?"
"Because he missed you. And he thought it was partly him who sent you away."
"Where is he? I wanna talk to him."
"He's gone out to get some stuff from the shops. He won't be long. Him and Izzy are making smores in the back yard."
"Are we good though. Anything else you wanna get off your chest?"
"You know if that boy hurts you I will-"
"Alright I get it. I'm gonna go join them in there."
"I'll let him know you're back when he gets in though"
"Thanks"

"Made up?" I nodded and he smiled
"She's gonna break your legs if you hurt me though" I sat down on his lap and kissed his cheek "Just so you know."
"I already did. But thanks for the heads up."
"We are watching uh....Mikey what are we watching mate?" Michael laughed
"We were watching 'it' but not anymore."
"I can go to bed if you want? So you can watch a horror film"
"It's fine. I can put something else on. We can watch a Disney film if you want?"
"You sure?"
"Yeah. Why wouldn't we be sure?"
"It's just stupid kid stuff innit?" I looked down at my hands and started playing with them whilst the boys shared a silent exchange
"Well watch Lilo and stitch if you want?" Tom said softly
"Yeah. Can we?"
"That's it Mikey. She's spoken."
"Lilo and Stitch it is" I smiled and rested my head on Tom whilst he had his arm wrapped around my waist to hold me up
"You tired?" Tom whispered
"Yeah. But not tired enough to go to bed. Not yet"
"You mean you're not tired enough to stop cuddling with me?"
"Something like that"
"Something?"
"Shut up tom"
"Don't tell me to shut up."
"I will get up" I threatened
"You fucking won't." I moved my legs so the were on the floor but I didn't get a chance to get up off his lap before he gripped his arms around my waist
"Didn't think you'd let her go for long" Mikey commented making me giggle a little as i lifted my legs back up across Tom's lap
"Nope." Tom said holding me again like he did before "Never"
"Ugh you two make me sick" Adam moaned
"You want a cuddle ad?" I asked genuinely
"You're fine. Stay with Tom" it was left at that but after a while or so Tom noticed that I wasn't comfy
"Just go over there and give him a cuddle." He whispered kissing my temple gently "We can go to bed when this finishes."
"You sure he wants to?"
"Damn sure." I smiled and he let go of me so I could get up and walk over to the sofa where the boys were sat. Mikey noticed but Adam didn't until I had sat down between the two of them and lifted his arm up so I could cuddle into his side
"You look like you need it" I said closing my eyes since I was comfortable. He chuckled lightly and put his arm around me
"Comfy there?" I hummed in agreement
"Very"
"You staying or going back to Tom now" I yawned quietly and let my cheek sink further into him
"Staying here" I mumbled. I couldn't see his face but I knew it was dorned with that stupid proud smile he does whenever were together. Like he was proud of me for feeling so comfortable. Or maybe he was just proud of how far I'd come from lashing out. "Will you wake me up when it ends?"
"Yeah. If you want." I reached my hand out but kept my eyes closed "You trying to hold my hand?" I nodded shyly and he took hold of my wrist to guide it to his free hand and then held it tightly "There you go." I heard the front door open and then the door to the living room open too
"Oh shit" Justin said quietly "I was just coming in to ask if Lexi wanted to come make smores"
"Can we do it tomorrow?" I said softly opening my eyes so I could look over at him "I'm watching a film with the boys"
"Bullshit. You were practically asleep" Adam joked
"That's not the point. Can I make smores with you tomorrow?"
"Sure can sweetheart. I'll be out the back all night. We're gonna camp out there. Could keep it up for tomorrow?" I nodded a smiled
"Have fun"
"Will do." He smiled back and left the room
"What the fuck was that?" Adam said softly
"We made up. Now just let me fucking sleep"
"Night then" he kissed my forehead and I hummed a response once again this time not following up with any words "I'll wake you up when Tom goes up" I nodded already drifting off "Okay lex. Love ya"