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Kabanata 22

Kabanata 22

fault

I wonder why there are envious people in this world. Dahil lang ba sa pera? Sa pagmamahal? Bakit kaya may mga taong hindi kayang makuntento sa kung anong meron sila? Bakit kailangang magselos sa atensyong natatanggap ng isa? 

Does that even matter? I don't really know. Well, baka importante nga ito para sa iba, pero sa akin? Hindi. I'm contented with everything that I have. Kontento na ako sa atensyong natatanggap ko mula sa aking pamilya.

I don't understand why people have to bring others down just so they can feel inferior. Kulang ba sila sa pagmamahal? Sa atensyon? O sa pera? They say the root of jealousy is fear and sadness. I mean, sa bahay ba nagsisimulang umusbong ang selos? 

I guess it is. Kasi kung binigyan ka naman ng tamang kalinga, atensyon at pagmamahal, magiging kontento ka naman 'e. Lalaki kang mapagmahal sa kapwa, lalaki kang matulungin kasi ito ang tinuturo sayo ng mga magulang mo.

I remember when I was in Junior High school, there was a group of friends who was so close, they joke around, do funny things together and laugh together just like how normal friends do.

But it changed. They suddenly changed. And you know what was the reason behind it? Nasira sila dahil lang sa naangatan ng isa ang dating palaging una sa honor list. 

That certain friend started creating rumors about that girl, ang kanilang mga kaibigan ay sumama sa iba, kaya magkasama silang nagkakalat ng kung ano-ano tungkol sa babae.

Funny how things quickly changed just because of a petty thing. It was one of my fear in making friends, because they can turn their backs on you so easily once you've reached the top. 

The once perfect friendship was tainted and the girl was left alone, resulting her to transfer because the rumors damaged her badly. There are also some people who are intimidated by you, talk bad about you with hopes that others won't find you appealing.

Jealousy is like a drug that keeps you addicted, and then all of a sudden, you become a person you hated the most. Envy is the art of counting the other person's blessing instead of your own. Minsan nakakalimutan natin ang sarili nating pag-angat dahil masyado tayong nahuhumaling sa tagumpay ng iba.

"Maureen..." lumingon ako kay Gabriel na kanina pa pala ako pinapanood. "Yes?" I faked a smile and raised a brow. He didn't reply, all he did was stare at me, looking for some signs that I wasn't okay.

I am okay. Hindi naman ako nasasaktan. 

I sighed internally. Well, maybe I am. But who cares anyway? Nangyari na 'e, ayaw ko namang ipakita sa kanila kung gaano na ako kadurog ngayon. I want them to see how strong I am, not how scarred and hurt I am. 

It's embarrassing you know. Nakakahiya na ngang makita pa nila ang kahihiyang sinapit ko kanina, pati ba naman ang pag-iyak ko? No, I won't let them see that.