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Kabanata 33

Kabanata 33

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Ilang oras kaming nagbabad sa tubig habang namayani ang katahimikan sa pagitan naming dalawa. I unconciously smiled while remembering the kiss we shared a while ago.

It was our first kiss...

I know I already had mine when Rayv suddenly kissed me on my birthday, but I didn't feel the magical things I've felt when Gabriel and I finally did it.

It was sudden, and it took me off guard. I didn't feel anything in that particular kiss, honestly. I even felt the guilt in my system knowing that Gabriel might've seen it that night. It felt like a sin to be kissed by someone who was not him.

Maybe because my heart knew who I really loved the most. Maybe because my body knew who I longed for. And lastly, maybe because my mind knows who I was thinking to do it with.

And it wasn't Rayver, it was no other than the man who is now hugging me in his arms while watching the fireflies ascending from the trees until it surrounded us now.

A soft smile plastered on my face as I stared at his face that was illuminated by the star-like creatures, together with the moon above. He wasn't smiling like how I was, but even without having to smile, his face screamed joy and utter bliss.

Hindi na niya kailangang ngumiti para malaman ko kung masaya ba siya o hindi, all I needed was just a glance at his eyes and I already knew what he was feeling right in this moment.

This guy... this guy made me feel all sorts of things ever since I was young. He's my first in everything—well, according to my feelings though.

He was my first crush. First kiss. First heartbreak. He made me feel my first butterflies in the stomach. He was the first guy who could make me smile just by staring at him.

He made me feel how love is so magical and yet, heart shuttering at the same time. He made me realize that love isn't all magical and happy, but it is also where you learn the most important things in life that you never knew were important all along.

Love is a dangerous game we all are playing. Because we never know if that person likes us back too, but you know what? One thing I learned from life is that we could never tell what will happen. We could either die tomorrow or get hurt overnight, but you know what's the catch?

The people who sacrifice and risk get the trophy they ever wanted from the start while those who didn't just go home. We could either risk just to know what happens or never at all.

Life is just like a game and love is a trophy.

That is why I'm thankful that I risked it before. I never let my doubts and worries overcome me when I gave him another chance to prove himself to me.