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Kabanata 23

Kabanata 23

wait

Days passed by faster than I've ever imagined. Hindi doon nagtatapos ang panlalait sa akin dahil nasundan pa iyon ng ilang linggo. Ang lahat ng natatanggap kong respeto noon, ay agad na naglaho at napalitan ng disgusto ng mga tao. 

It was so heart-shattering because I felt like it got worst every day. Some would even bump me intentionally when I'm alone and would mumble something offensive to me, and the next thing I knew, they are laughing their ass off again.

Maging ang mga guro ay wala nang magawa, dahil hindi nila kontrolado ang mga galaw ng bawat estudyante. Our Principal even approached me and appologized for the treatment I got and for letting these kinds of things to happen in the campus.

I just forbid myself to think about it because there's nothing I could do. Hinahayaan ko nalang mangyari ang lahat na isa sa kinaiinisan ni Irish sa akin. She kept on defending me and she even almost got into a cat fight but I would always stop her in the end. 

I don't want her to hurt herself just because of me, these kind of situations are inevitable and she would just waste her time fighting those close-minded people.

Kuya even got into a fight because some guys were harassing me, causing him to get suspended for days. Naging sanhi pa iyon ng pagkawala niya sa honor list dahil nasuspend na naman siya. Masama na nga ang record niya, pinasama niya pa lalo. 

That was his last chance that the faculty gave him, but he just wasted it. I told him to never engage into fights anymore but he only shrugged it off. He even almost told Ate about it, it was a relief when I was able to stop him. Ayaw ko nang paabutin pa nangyari sa akin kina Mommy dahil ayaw kong mag-alala sila sa akin.

I can handle this. I will get the hang of it... soon. I just have to fake it til I make it. Sa ngayon, kailangan ko lang pagtiisan ang lahat dahil alam kong mawawala din ito. I hope so...

Second week of March, we were preparing for our graduation when I heard that Rayver will be leaving sooner than I expected, according from the girls on the corridor. 

My heart throbbed painfully upon thinking about Rayver. We've seen each other, well that's given because we're classmates but we've never talked after what happened.

I'm sure he thought that I was cheating on him. Kahit nagkikita naman kami ay kabang-kaba pa rin ako dahil parati kong iniisip ang damdamin niya.

But now that he's leaving, I instantly regret not talking to him. I should've reached out dahil ako naman ang may atraso. He's been really good to me, I can't just let him leave without talking to him.

Kaya hinanap ko siya. Sinubukan kong hagilapin siya sa canteen, sa Principal's office, at kahit saan ngunit hindi ko naman siya nakita. 

Nagsimula na ang klase ngunit hindi ko na iyon pinansin dahil gusto ko nang makausap siya ngayon dahil baka ito na ang huling pagkakataon ko. Wala na rin naman kaming totoong klase dahil busy ang lahat sa nalalapit na graduation at clearance signing.