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Kabanata 32

Kabanata 32

kiss

A month has passed that I didn't know what to feel. I was just too preoccupied to even think rationally to be honest. The only time I could escape everything was when I'm with Gabriel.

He's my golden escape from everything. I felt like whenever I'm with him, I could be whoever I intend to be. I can laugh harder than I usually do and don't care about it.

I can make silly jokes that are very lame and would glance at him to see his reaction, but then I would only seem him stifling his smile while staring at me. Hindi ko alam kung mao-offend ba ako o hindi dahil hindi man lang siya tumatawa para suportahan ako.

But anyway, kahit naman hindi siya tumawa ay napapasaya niya pa rin ako. I know it sounds so cheesy but it's really like that when you're in love. It makes you do things you haven't done before, it fascinates me honestly.

But what fascinates me the most is that the students learned how to bully me and make fun of me in front of the whole school. It hurt me a bit but aside from that, I felt nothing at all.

I mean, ano ba ang dapat kong maramdaman sa pangbu-bully nila sa akin? Umiyak? Magsumbong?

Nah.

Kaya lang naman nila ako nakayang kutyain ay dahil wala sina Gabriel sa tuwing ginagawa nila 'yun. They would always find a very good timing to mock and insult me.

I internally laughed. What a bunch of scaredy cats.

Napailing na lamang ako sa tuwing inaalala ko ang mga pinanggagawa nila sa akin pero kung lalaban naman ako, kusa silang umaatras at bigla nalang natatakot.

"Salot sa lipunan ang pamilya niyo! Dapat na kayong mawalan ng yaman dahil iyan lang naman ang nagdadala sa inyo!" The girl from the lower level shouted at the top of her lungs with hands balled into a fist.

Her friends and the people around us started throwing their words at me too, while I was just quietly scribbling on my notebook, under the acacia tree.

Salot sa lipunan. Kayamanan ang nagdadala. Dapat nang mamatay. Mga hangal.

Those were just some words they were throwing that were actually just going out of my ear. Hindi ko alam kung bakit wala nang epekto ang mga salitang 'yun sa sarili ko. It was defeaning, I'll give them that. But aside from that? Wala na.

Baka kasi alam ko sa sarili kong totoo ang lahat ng 'yun at wala na akong magagawa pa. Kusa nalang lumalabas sa kabilang tenga ko ang mga salitang pinagbabato nila dahil sa pagkamanhid ko.

"Hoy! Wag kang magf-feeling diyan! Oo, maganda ka pero punong-puno naman ng masasamang ugali ang pamilya mo!" dagdag pa niya.

Napapikit ako ng mariin nang bigla siyang nagbato ng itlog sa akin. It hit straight to my head. What a sharp shooter. I huffed a breath in pure annoyance but I just calmed myself down in the end. Dinig ko ang tawanan na umusbong sa paligid na hindi ko na pinansin.