Last Summer's Catastrophe

Chapter 37

Sorry

"You're spacing out again."

Napalingon ako kay Carl na mukhang kanina pa pala ako kinakausap. Tipid akong ngumiti.

"Sorry. I'm not in the mood."

"Lagi ka nalang wala sa mood simula nung event. Ano ba kasing nangyari? Ano't naisipan mong magwalwal at mag-walk-out?"

"I don't know. I guess I was just being crazy that time," I answered.

Pinanliitan niya ako ng mata, hindi naniniwala sa mga sinasabi ko. Umirap naman ako para mawala ang pagsususpetsa niya.

"I'll go home now."

"May nangyari talaga, eh. Okay, enough from being nosy. Hindi na kita pipilitin but call if you want someone to talk to, ha?"

I nod slightly. Sinikop ko na ang mga gamit ko at naglakad palabas ng building. Kanina pa ako nagbook ng taxi at saktong nandito na rin ang binook ko kaya nagdire-diretso na ako pauwi ng condo.

It's a hella tiring day. I could feel my whole body aching and I can't do anything about it. I was busy in the cafe in the morning then we had meetings in the Apparel.

When my I finally laid my back on my bed, I felt a slight relief. Para na agad akong hinihila ng antok. But I'm still dirty, I haven't took a shower yet. Before my body could worship the bed, I started to strip and find my way towards my tub. Inantay kong mapuno ito ng maligamgam na tubig at bula bago inilublob ang sarili.

One hell week. I've been communiting for days now coz that asshole named Genesis suddenly disappeared. Right after that night ay hindi na ulit kami nagkita or nag-usap. We didn't even talk the whole home ride since I was asleep. Pagdating naman sa condo ay hindi ko na rin siya kinausap at dumiretso na sa unit ko. He didn't stop me too.

Or maybe he's not around because he knows that I have no schedule for this week? I was supposed to take a rest the whole week but I can't stop myself from overthinking the whole time I'm alone so I decided to busy myself from work.

Or maybe not. If he really wants to clear things between us or be enlightened he would have visit me the other day and then we'll talk. But he did not.

He wasn't persistent as before. Well I guess, people do really change. Real quick. So that's how we will end things between us and I regret not confronting him, not telling him how much I resent him.

But the other part of my head is saying that I'm dissapointed that he already left me. Just one fucking misunderstanding and he left me hanging again. He didn't even ask for explanation.

Why am I even thinking about it. Tama na, Eula. Stop thinking about him. Stop making yourself a fool. Just stop.

Even with my mind full of thoughts I still get to fell asleep after my shower.

Cafe-Apparel was my usual routine the whole week. Kapag naman may offer na project ay thru email ang request at sumasaglit para makipag-meet para sa contract signing. Tomorrow I have a scheduled photoshoot for a cosmetic brand.

"I'll drive you home."

Napalingon ako kay Landen na siyang nagprisinta. He's already holding his car keys.

"H'wag na. Susunduin mo pa si Hazel. Mapapagod ka lang."

We're both at the cafe. Hazel is busy on something, that's why he's here. Mamaya naman ay kakaunin niya ulit. Kung kapareho lang sana ng direksyon papunta kay Hazel ang daan ay magpapahatid ako, but it's the opposite direction so 'wag na lang.