Last Summer's Catastrophe

Chapter 29

Flying Kiss

I snapped back to reality when Landen cupped my face. He tapped me a bit. I turned at him with my shifty eyes, still shocked from what's happening.

"Are you okay?" He asked.

My heart continue to tightened. Am I dreaming? Bumaling ako sa kabilang dako para siguraduhin ang nangyayari, which I soon regretted. Nanikip ng todo ang dibdib ko to the point that it is suffocating me. I could feel my body shaking, halos mabual pa ako sa kinatatayuan kung hindi lang dahil sa kay Landen na siyang sumusuporta sa'kin.

"I... I n-need to go. I-I'm sorry." I said as I force my self to find my way out.

"Eula!" he called and was ready to run after me but I wave my shaking hands to assure him.

Kahit na nanghihina ay pinilit kong makarating sa sasakyan ko. I don't care anymore if I had forgotten the poise. Ibinagsak ko ang sarili sa driver's seat, maagap kong pinaandar ang sasakyan para makalayo roon. Para akong lupaypay na gulay. I hit my chest part with my fist as I feel it tightening severely. It was painful. My tears start to stream down my cheeks. Hindi ko na alam ang gagawin ko. Pakiramdam ko ay mamamatay na ako. Nang pakiramdam kong nakalayo-layo na ay itinigil ko muna ang sasakyan.

With my trembling hands, I reached for the mini-compartment and opened it. Mabilis kong hinagilap ang lalagyan ng gamot, hindi na alintana kung kumalat pa ang ibang gamit ko.

Did he planned this? Ipapapulis niya ba 'ko? Is he here for revenge? Pero bakit pa? He already ruined my life, he already made me feel untrustworthy. Ano pa ba ang kailangan niya? Those thoughts start to cloud my mind, making me more miserable.

Itinapon ko ang labis na dami ng gamot sa palad ko at saka ito nilagok. Wala na akong pakialam kung ma-overdose pa. Basta ba at mahinto ako sa panginginig at tuluyan ng makahinga ng ayos. I tried to calm myself too.

"Calm down Eula. Happy thoughts, happy thoughts." I forced myself kahit pa patuloy ang pagtulo ng luha.

I tried to calm myself till the best I can. Inalala ko ang mga ipinayo sa'kin ng doktor ko. I took a deep breath and sort out the bad thoughts.

It took me awhile before I finally composed myself. My body were less shaking and my breathing starts to get normal. Nahilamos ko na lang ang mukha ko at naiuntog ang ulo sa manibela.

Why is he here? Eula, the obvious answer is he delivered eggs! But what if he planned this? What if he has an ulterior move? Were the eggs poisonous and he's trying to ruin my name by making my business fail? But how did he know, if ever? And he's not like that...

Napasinghal ako. Ano nga bang alam ko? Ngi hindi ko nga rin inakalang tatalikuran niya ako ng noon.

"Eula, stop being bitter," I said to myself. "You already moved on. He's an asshole for not believing you. He's just a plain stupid trash for you now."

Yun lang ang tanging pampalubag loob ko. Lahat ng tumalikod sa'kin noon, mga basura na para sa'kin ngayon. Hindi ko kailangan ng mga tulad nila.

Mula sa pagkakatulala sa kulay kahel na langit ay lumipat 'yon sa phone ko na mukhang kanina pa walang tigil sa pag-vibrate. Nakita kong si Landen ang tumatawag kaya naman pinulot ko 'yon at sinagot ang tawag niya.

"Eula, where the hell are you?! Kanina pa ako tumatawag! Mamamatay ako sa pag-aalala!"

"Hey, I'm sorry. I just had a casual headache and nagpanic ako. Don't worry, I'm fine now." Pagdadahilan ko.

He sighed. "Mababaliw ako sayo. Where are you now? I'll set you an appointment sa hospital. Baka mamaya hindi na lang yan basta casual headache."

"Just admit that you haven't moved on and you're still crazy for me," I joked to assure him that I'm fine. He seems tensed kasi. "No need to set an appointment. I'm fine now. Uuwi na ako."