Snake Bite || Sapnap

6

I felt homesick a lot whilst in England, but some days were worse than others. After calling my parents, I felt completely drained. All I wanted to do was give them a hug and it was only made worse when they sent me a picture of Moose laying in my bed at home.

The part that hurt the most was knowing that technically I could go home to them, but the danger surrounding it was too much. Every time I set myself a time I hoped to get back by, I was left hurt. Originally I was hoping that I might've been able to move back in time for Thanksgiving, but my new goal seemed to be Christmas. Thanksgiving was a strange goal since my family didn't celebrate it, but it had become a tradition for the Jacobs family to invite Bea and I over.

I sighed into my pillow. The idea of returning to America felt more and more unrealistic by the day. I'd been here eight months with this idea that I'd go back soon. Soon would've been eight months ago.

  These thoughts of home kept me up. I tried to distract myself with planning new outfits and doing my makeup, but nothing helped. I found myself just staring at my ceiling while I laid in bed.

  I picked up my phone and noticed the time, four in the morning. These dumb thoughts had me up at four in the morning with nothing to do. Will had always let me vent to him in times like this, but he should've been asleep.

  I had always refused to vent to Bea and Sean about my homesickness because they would only make it worse. I missed them like hell.

  Everyone I had here in England, plus Niki, would be asleep and my friends from home would only make the situation worse. I needed a distraction and nothing was working. I only had one more person I could really go to and I'd missed his call today because I couldn't eat.

Medusa
Hey are you busy?

Sapnap
Are you okay?
What are you doing awake rn?

Medusa
Can't sleep
Can you call?

  My question was answered by a Discord call, which I immediately picked up. "Hey, Sapnap." I greeted him.

  "Hey, you can't sleep? Is there a reason?" Sapnap's concerned tone poked through.

  I shook my head to myself and took a deep breath. "It's just overthinking."

  "Overthinking what?" He questioned. "I mean- if you want to talk about it."

  "Just some homesickness." I admitted. "I talked to my parents today and it put me in a funk."

"What can I do?" His voice was soft.

His question caught me off guard. "What?"

"What can I do to help you?" He rephrased his question. "Like, do you want to talk about it or do you want a distraction or anything else?"

I looked at my phone. I can't remember anyone asking me that. They always just chose for me. "I- I don't know."

"Maybe we should focus on trying to get you to sleep?" He suggested. "Whatever's gonna help with that."

I looked back up to my ceiling in thought. I didn't really have trouble getting to sleep often. The issue for me was getting up. "Can you talk? Like you normally would, since we missed dinner tonight."

"Yeah. I can do that." Sapnap started to tell me every detail about his day while I closed my eyes. He told me about how he had been online with Dream and George. He told me about how his mom nearly killed him when he was late to dinner because George wouldn't stop talking. He told me about how Karl was gonna get him online for something later that night.