My One And Only

Chapter 30

Jess POV

I wake up in the morning and take my meds before going downstairs.

I go through to the kitchen and Eva was in there.

I smile at her awkwardly and start making my breakfast.

"Did you mean what you said about breaking up last night" Eva asks breaking the silence

I look at her and her eyes were puffy she'd clearly been crying.

Fuck what have I done.

"Well did you" Eva asks once more snapping me out of my thoughts

I go to speak but she starts walking away.

"I'll take that as a yes"

Before I have a chance to say anything she'd gone.

"FUCK" I scream out which causes Dev to run through

"Is everything okay Jess" "no I've completely fucked everything with Eva"

"I'm sure you haven't Jess" Dev says reassuringly

"I'm going to get out of here for a few days it will be easier for everyone especially Eva" I say and start walking upstairs.

I pack some clothes into a bag and my toiletries as well as my meds.

"Whoa dipshit where do you think your going" Katie asks as she comes into my room

"Leaving for a few days it will easier for all of you especially Eva"

"But you can't leave"

"I can Katie I've upset Eva too much it's not fair"

"Just tell me where your going so I know your safe" Katie asks

"Sway I'll be back in a few days"

With that I grab the bag that I packed and walk downstairs.

I see Eva sat on the couch with Karina.

I try and walk past them but Karina speaks.

"Where are you going Jess" she asks

As I turn around to look at them and that's when I make eye contact with Eva.

She was still crying and my heart breaks.

If I had just gone to therapy none of this would be happening.

"I'm going away for a few days" I say

"Why" Karina asks

"It will just be easier for all of you if I'm not here especially you Eva" I say tearing up

"How will it Jess I want you here" Eva cry's out and I also start crying

"I'll be back in a few days" I say crying

Before either of them have the chance to speak I turn around and leave.

I get into my car and just breakdown.

Eva POV

"Why can't she just be here" I cry into Karina's chest

"She will be in a few days" Karina says reassuringly

"I shouldn't have got so angry about her not going to therapy or that picture with Addison and why the fuck did I say I believed Connor over her" I cry once more

"It was an in the moment thing Eva I'm sure she understands and I'm sure she regrets saying what she did"

"Has she gone" Katie asks running over

"Yeah" Karina reply's

"Do you know where she's gone" I ask "um sway" Katie reply's and I just nod my head

"Sway won't let her do anything stupid Eva and you know that"

"I know they won't it still doesn't make me worry less like none of us know what she's feeling"

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Jess POV

I've been at sway for a couple of hours but barely spoken to anyone.

I miss Eva so much.

I just want her here with me.

This is my fault though this is what I deserve.

"It will get better you know" Bryce says as he sits down next to me

"Will it"

"Yeah think of me and Addison all the times I fucked up but look we are here now happier than ever all because we have this connection and love that will always keep us together and I see that with you and Eva"

"I love her so much" I sniff

"Look Jess all relationships have bumps along the way and those bumps are what make the relationship stronger" Bryce says

"That's if you make it through them"

"Which you will I know you will" he says

"I want her here with me" I sniff "I know you do Jess but you will see her again and anyway she's probably thinking the exact same as you"

"I just want to message her" I say

"I know you want to but you can't well you can but don't"

"Now why don't you show me and the boys and Addison, Dixie and Amelie how to play netball properly" he says

"Why would I want to do that" I ask

"Because firstly you can do something you enjoy to take your mind off it and secondly you can make a video out of it, it saves you having to think of another one"

"That's very true although I haven't played in a couple of years so I won't be the best"

"Well you'll be better than the rest of us" he says making me laugh

Eva POV

I lay in Jess's bed with Anna as I felt closer to Jess that way.

"I just love her so much"

"I know you do Eva but just think it will get better soon you two were made for each other" Anna says and I smile slightly

"I just want to message her" I say opening my phone and seeing my lock screen of me her which makes me sadder

"No Eva don't message her" Anna says taking my phone out of my hands

"You need to take your mind off this why don't you we watch cute puppy videos on YouTube" Anna suggests

I load YouTube on my TV and the first video that comes up is a new one that Jess has posted.

I feel myself tear up as I click on the video and play it.

"Hey no no no don't watch her video's that will make you feel worse" Anna says and snatches the remote off me

"No just let me watch it" I say taking the remote back "fine"

She was teaching Sway and their girlfriends how to play netball she looked happy from her smile but you could see how sad she was from her eyes.

"I've never seen her play netball" Anna says "neither she's shown me video's of when she used to play but that's it"

"I wonder why she quit" Anna says "Something about her breaking her finger too many times" I say

The video finishes and it makes me sadder.

"You were right I shouldn't have watched that video I want her here more now" I say "just keep thinking she will be soon and anyway she's probably thinking the exact same as you"

I get up and grab one of Jess's hoodies so I can feel closer to her.

I get back into bed and manage to fall asleep.