A love reborn from the ashes.

10 - Finally her

Can

I got off the fishing boat and with a firm step I headed towards her cottage, I had seen her come out on the porch and head towards the sea, it was the moment of truth, I had to meet her, I had to ask her forgiveness, it was impossible to wait any longer.

I saw her sitting in the grass on the embankment while once again she raised her face towards the sun, to welcome the beneficial warmth of that day. My decisive steps hid all my fears and insecurities.She must have heard me approaching because, with a warm smile, she turned to me, opening her eyes.

That wonderful smile faded in an instant, she thought I was probably uncle Yusuf and now I thought she couldn't believe what  was looking at.
With an incredulous look she began to shake her head as she stood up, I took a step forward and she stepped back.
How much that reaction hurt, almost as much as seeing her hands shake and her eyes fill with tears.

Asla, never, never in my life did I want to make her cry, my heart only wanted her happiness. I tried to reach out a hand to her, she looked at it for a moment and all she could do was raise her arms in defense and turn to the sea.

How much it hurt me to see her like that, the last of my desires was to upset her, I lowered my gaze, let myself fall to the ground crossing my legs, took a deep breath and began to speak.

- I'm back Sanem, I'm back to stay and never go away again.

Sanem, I'm here, I'm here for you, I'm here where I should have stayed all this time.
I have regretted my escape from the first moment and I can only acknowledge my cowardice and inordinate stubbornness for not immediately reversing course and returning to you.
I regretted every single day, every single moment of not staying, of letting go of your hand.
If at that moment you were not able to hold mine, I would have had to fight and wait until you were ready.
In this year I have traveled around the world with nothing but thoughts of you, how could I have left you? How could I? I can't explain it.
Maybe little Can abandoned by Huma at an early age was afraid that by refusing my hand, you were abandoning me in turn?
I don't know, I can't explain how I could leave the love of my life, my everything, the only person who made me feel loved and at home.
I could stand here for hours asking for your forgiveness, telling you that seni çok seviyorum, I love you so much and always will and I will, rest assured.
This time I will have no hesitation, I will fight for us even against you, if necessary, to make you understand how much I love you.

Lütfen, please say something, look at me ...."

An interminable amount of time seemed to pass before I saw her take a deep breath and turn slowly towards me, her gaze was still stunned, incredulous .
She looked at me intently for what seemed like an eternity, took a deep breath to speak and....

"Anne, mom, we're back!"

We abruptly turned together towards the voice that had called, my questioning gaze moved from the girl I had seen bringing the baby to the cottage that morning, to Sanem's shocked face and onto the little angel smiling in the baby carriage.