A love reborn from the ashes.

37 - Aşk (Love)

Sanem

My heart was pounding, I saw Can get down on one knee and pull out a small red velvet box.
He opened it and showed me a ring that left me breathless, it was the exact same moonstone ring he had asked me to marry him with, not once, but twice, only this one had two stones, one light and one dark.
I was breathless.

- Sanem I have learned the hard way that in life there is a darkness that can suck you in and take you away from what is essential to survive.
I would like you to wear this ring so that seeing it every day of my life on your finger I can remember how terrible it was to let that darkness prevail and how my purpose will always have to be to shine you, my light, my bright side of the moon.
I have learned a hard lesson that I will never forget again, I promise.

Don't ever fear that I will leave you again, you are my mountains and my forest Sanem , I opened my heart to you even before I knew about Nihat, don't think I'm doing this for him.
Remember what I told you that first night on the pier, I came back to stay and never go away again.

Seni çok seviyorum, I love you, I have always loved you and I will always love you.

Please trust me again, my love for you, be mine again.

- Will you marry me? -

From the first moment he had returned he had done nothing but open his heart to me, even at the cost of being hurt, he had declared his love to me with words but above all with small gestures and deeds.

In this same place he had confessed to me, a long time before, to be in love with me without receiving any answer, it was time to change things.
I took his hands between mine, I invited him to get up looking intensely into his eyes.

- Can, since you came back you have tried to win me back in every way, you said you wanted me to fall in love again but it's impossible -

I saw him waver at this statement.

I squeezed his hands tighter.

- What you ask me is impossible -

I saw him dropping his head forward and sighing deeply trying to leave my hands and move away.

- It's impossible because I've never stopped loving you Can, I've always been in love with you, even in the darkest moments I couldn't forget you.
My love for you is tattooed in this stupid heart and it can never be erased -

I brought his hand to my chest.

- My pride, the fear of suffering again made me stay away from you, but my heart never wanted to know about giving up its albatross.

I only ever wanted you Can, I only wish to be with you and never let you go.

I don't want to tie you down, if you feel the need to go we'll talk openly, I don't want to be a cage for you to feel locked up in -

Can

I couldn't believe what I was hearing, my heart was bursting with happiness.

- Sanem, the albatross chooses his mate for life, you are mine.

The 'only cage was my damn pride that kept me away, there is no freedom without you, seni çok seviyorum, I love you so much erkenci kus -

Sanem smiled with those dimples I adored more than anything else in the world.

- Seni çok çok seviyorum, I love you so much , so much Can -

I looked at her in ecstasy, she had said it, she had said she loved me, I took her in my arms and started to spin around screaming for joy, then I put her back down and finally did what I had missed doing so much.
I stroked her hair softly, pulling it away from her face, and kissed her feeling like I was touching the sky with my finger.

There had been moments when I had feared that it would be impossible for her to forgive me, I had been afraid of losing her forever, I had been afraid that it would be too much, too late, I had been afraid of having to live an entire existence without her.
If possible, I loved her even more in that moment because this wonderful woman was capable of giving love even to the one who, even if unconsciously, had hurt her the most in this life.

What an exceptional woman she was, I adored her and would spend the rest of my days proving it to her. Söz, I promise!

We looked at each other with eyes that reflected the same boundless love, I returned to kneel at her feet smiling.

- I didn't get an answer to my question yet Miss Aydin.

I want to ask again, they say there is no two without three so for the third time I want to ask you, I will do it with the words of a writer we loved reading together:

I want to be with you forever.

I want to wake up next to you every morning and go to bed next to you every night.

I want to wear a ring on my finger every day of my life knowing your name is on it.

I want to make promises to you and I want to spend every day of my life

working to keep those promises.

(Chanel Cleeton)

- Will you marry me Sanem Aydin?

Clapping her hands and with the most beautiful smile I had ever seen on that gorgeous face she screamed:

- Eveeeeeeet , yes yes!