savior complex - kth

015

I looked at the can of beer in my hand and just opened it, not sure really what to do about what is going on right in front of me. Namjoon just kept talking and when I eventually looked up, Taehyung was setting the girl that was thrown over his shoulder down. She leaned towards him and playfully punched his arm and when he turned to look at her I could see him laughing.

Namjoon stood up from the seat beside me and I turned to Jungkook, telling him quietly how these party seem to never be our type of scene. In Namjoon's empty seat, a very pretty girl sat down. She had bangs over her forehead and her makeup was done really beautiful, with two black dots underneath her eyes bringing out the green covering her eyelid. She was dressed in a pink top, but her pants were just white dickies.

I turned and gave her a smile and she gave me a slight smile back. Before I could turn back to Jungkook she spoke to me. "I've always thought this backyard wasn't as cool as the house."

I sort of laughed because she was right, the inside decor was so nice and the house was huge, even without including the secret room. "Yeah, I think you're right."

She lifted up the cup that was in her hands and brought it to her lips, taking a sip of her drink. "I've been coming to their parties since I was a freshman. My name is Andie."

I laughed, back home everyone always called me Joey. "Oh my god, if we went out together people would think we were guys from our names my name is Joey."

"Wait, how many times have you showed up somewhere and someone said 'Oh my god I thought you were gonna be a guy'?" Andie said while laughing.

I could tell that I like this girl already, she was so cute and seemed to be like my friends back home. "Like all the time. My names Josephine but I'm going by Josie here so that doesn't keep happening. But my best friend, Jungkook,  calls me Jo." I pointed my thumb at him over my shoulder.

When I looked at where she looked, at Jungkook, he was just looking around seeming like he didn't want to bother me during this conversation. I heard Jimins voice above my heard, startling me. "Look who's here." I didn't even get a chance to speak when I looked up at him because he spoke again, but now he was looking at Andie " You ok?"

She took a big sip of her drink then held the cup up In his direction, giving him a one sided cheers. The bangs on her forehead moved as she slumped down in her chair, the New York breeze making her look like a model. "I honestly don't know why I came. This literally always happens."

Jimins hands went from the back of my chair to my shoulders, leaning over me a little more. Jungkook had now turned his attention to this conversation. Jimin just seemed to ignore us and kept talking. "Yeah, I don't know why he does this. But we did tell you that he was like this."

I watched Andie's eyes as they moved from Jimin over to the sliding door that lead inside the house. They landed on Taehyung whose shoulder was pressed against the glass and he was staring outside at the fire pit. There was a girl standing almost in front of him, not the girl he was carrying before, and she appeared the be talking but he wasn't listening.

"I don't know I just thought he would be different after last weekend." Andies words broke me out of the trance I was in.

"Well don't think." Jimin said. His thumbs started massaging over my shoulders, and it was now that I realized that he wasn't just ignoring Jungkook and I sitting here. Although I had thought that he didn't think anything of me being at the house, he clearly knew something was going on. It also hit me that I must be one of many girls to see the 'top secret place'. "I love Tae but he's not the guy for you."

I wanted to get up and storm out, to never come back to this house again. But Jimin was sort of holding me down, and Jungkook would be really confused. I like this girl Andie and I couldn't help but feel jealous. Though, I didn't envy the situation she was in, but it felt like I was sort of in it.

Jimins hands came off my shoulders and he wrapped an arm over Andies shoulder, tugging her close to him and planting a kiss on her temple. He made an exaggerated 'mwah' noise to make her laugh. "I'm gonna go get a drink."

"I'll come." I said and stood up. I looked back at Jungkook and he gave me a little nod, letting me know it was ok that I left him.

I followed Jimin towards the door but grabbed the back of his t-shirt out of instinct to not lose him in the crowd. I heard him laugh and he reached back and pulled my hand off of his shirt and into his. He pushed the sliding door open and walked inside. I looked over to where Taehyung was standing, but he no longer was, and no longer was the girl standing there.

I didn't notice until Jimin spoke that I had started to squeeze his hand. "Are you okay?"

I nodded my head quickly and let go of his hand. "Why would I not be?"

I lifted up my beer can and finished the last few sips in it. When I set the empty can on the counter it made a noise, Jimin was looking at me like I had done something crazy. "Because you just squeezed the fuck out of my hand." He was smiling while he said it, almost about to laugh.

I had to think of something quick, so I said something that was not even half way true. "I just get nervous leaving Jungkook alone."

"I don't think you need to baby him, Josie. Plus, Andie's the best and she's talking to him." He pointed through the glass door and I caught Jungkook laughing at something she said. I just smiled. " You know what? I think we should take some shots. That'll ease your mind."

"Yeah, something like that."

Before I knew it I was taking my sixth shot, a cup full of coke in my hands as a chaser, making the shots go down way too easy. Jimin and I couldn't stop laughing  at a joke he made that we've now taken too far. It stopped when he gave me a serious look. "I think its time you try the Jimin special."

He flopped down on the floor and sat with his back leaning against the kitchen counter, he had a bottle of absolute vodka in his hand. He held up three of his fingers, laughing really hard as he did it. As if being drunk gave us a secret code, I grabbed us each three shot glasses and sat down on the floor beside him. He then poured us each our three shots and stuck his hand in his pocket, pulling out an open bag of sour gummy worms. "What the fuck?" I don't know how those words came out I was laughing too hard.

"We take these fast...gummy worm after each shot...three rounds of thumb wars loser stands up first" in all of the laughing I could still decode what the Jimin special was.

I gave him a nod, and before I knew it I had won the final round of thumb war. He then stood up and immediately grabbed the table. He looked down at me with a serious face but I couldn't help but keep giggling, he then let out a laugh louder than any laugh I had ever heard from him.

It was my turn to stand up and he reached out his hand to help me, if he wouldn't have I would've fell over which just made us laugh even more. I could feel how hot my cheeks had gotten when Jimins cold hand touched it. "Your face is really hot."

I just laughed. I was probably speaking way louder than I should have when I said, "I have to show Jungkook this." I grabbed three shot glasses and the absolute vodka then held out my hand for the gummy worms. I then held onto the counter and then the wall as I made my way back outside.

"JUNGKOOK! JUNGKOOK! Sit on the floor." I knew now that I was yelling, but I was excited. He looked at me confused but then got out and sat on the floor in front of the chair he was previously sitting. I took a big gulp of the vodka then accidentally ate one of the gummy worms. "Sorry."

I began pouring Jungkook's shots and trying to explain what he was going to do, but I don't think the right words were coming out from the look on his face.

"EVERYONE GET OUT!" I almost jumped when I heard Taehyungs voice yelling at everyone. I was turned to face him and his eyes were on me. "I SAID EVERYONE GET THE FUCK OUT!"

I reached over to help Jungkook up so we could leave. I could hear so many people around us saying 'What the fuck?' when Jungkook got up he immediately grabbed my arm to keep me up straight. But when we began to go inside to leave, Taehyung looked right at me. His voice was deep and he sounded mad. "Not you."