savior complex - kth

039

Taehyung wasn't sitting in the lobby when I went out to get myself some water in the middle of the night. He also wasn't at school the next day. Or at his house after when I knocked on the door looking for him.

Jungkook had come home the next day like he had said, but was excused from his classes for the rest of the week. I brought home dinner every night, and sat beside him as he drew. Since tonight was Friday night, Stella was coming over and I was going out. Out for me tonight was going to the dance studio.

"The newest one." Jungkook said and held up a drawing of me, I'm sitting across from him at the kitchen table eating the noodles I had gotten us for tonight.

"Ah, what's this one called?"

"Jo with a mouth full" He said with a laugh then set it down on top of one that was called 'Jo refusing to move from a hospital chair", in which the drawing was exactly that. I was curled up into a ball with the shitty paper thin blanket over me, Taehyung's clothes still on. I was glad it was covered because every time I glanced at it I was reminded of the smell of cinnamon and whiskey, the way that Taehyung smelled. And his clothes. And his sheets. And his room. And his bathroom. I needed to knock the scent out of my mind for now because it just made me long for him.

I got off the couch and walked to the kitchen, grabbing our dirty plates on the way. I was hoping Jungkook hadn't noticed me zoning out like that, but he notices everything.

"Stella should be here soon. You should stay, Jo. I think she's going to paint. I'm going to probably keep drawing." He offered.

It was a nice idea, but I felt like I had been here too much and not around any other humans but Jungkook for the last few days. All I wanted to do was dance, and I knew as soon as I left here I was calling Taehyung with the slight hope he'd answer this time.

I was the one who had acted out and yelled at him, blaming him for something that wasn't his fault. I was just so upset about Jungkook and I let everything about him keeping secrets from me and ignoring me all fall out into what I said. It was so wrong but now he disappeared again, this time I knew I was the reason.

"Did you hear me?" Jungkook asked again, now he was by my side. "What's up with you right now?"

I realized I had been scrubbing the same dish this whole time I was in daydream land. "Oh, I was just thinking really hard."

He chuckled. "I can tell."

"I think I'm going to leave though, so you guys can have some time alone." I felt him step behind me and his hands grabbed my shoulders, digging his thumbs into my muscles. "I need to go to the studio anyways. No one should be there." I felt him jerk my shoulders back suddenly and the wind got knocked out of me, feeling him lightly kiss the top of my head after. I pulled away and playfully pushed him off for scaring me. "I'm going to leave now."

"Okay, Stella's going to be here soon." He stepped in my place to finish washing the dishes. "The invite is always open."

"If I come back I'll probably fall asleep." I said honestly.

I wasn't intentionally trying to not be around them, I just needed time alone. I also didn't care to see them kiss and cuddle, though Jungkook wasn't that affectionate in relationships, I knew it would just make me sad.

"Love you. Text me if you need me." Jungkook said as I grabbed my bag.

He tossed me my water bottle that was on the counter that I almost forgot. "Yeah, because you'll definitely answer."

This got a laugh out of him and I soon escaped the apartment, sliding the water bottle into my bag while pulling my phone out. I called Jude hoping for an answer.