savior complex - kth

024

"Let's go sneak some candy in to see a movie." Was Jungkook's offer to me after loving on me until I was okay, which didn't take too long. I realized how silly I was being even though Jungkook tried to convince me I wasn't.

We saw a throwback movie in an old theatre a little bit away from our apartment. We took a walk there which we hadn't done in what felt like forever, and he caught me up on what happened. He said that they offered to give him new medicine, though the side effects seemed worse but they weren't guarantee. He said he would stick with the one he used right now because he didn't want to deal with getting sick just yet. He told me he was under a sleep monitor that observed the wave lengths of his brain and how they react to him being active, what causes him to throw up. I kept asking him questions to avoid talking about Taehyung and he didn't ask. He knew I'd talk about it when I was ready.

The movie playing was Titanic, so we watched it but we mostly joked to each other during the serious scenes. We got a lot of people 'shh'ing us which just made us laugh more.

We took an even longer walk home where I told him that Yoongi was going to be in Brooklyn this weekend, he asked me if I was going to see him and I told him that I didn't know. He told me how I shouldn't bother but it felt like I might as well now, maybe just in spite of Taehyung. I kept that bit of information to myself.

Jungkook fell asleep almost as soon as his head hit the pillow. I had pulled up a true crime documentary on my computer and my first glance at Jungkook to see if he was paying attention revealed that he was out out. I tossed and turned almost the whole night, making me feel the most tired I ever had on the walk to school the next day.

My first class was almost like a day dream even though Namjoon made comments to me most of the way through, and I just giggled even when I didn't know if what he said was funny. I finally came alive when Jimin held out a cup of hot coffee towards me in our second period. "It's Monday. I figured you'd want one."

I held it in one hand as I sat down, pulling my notebooks out for this lecture. "I'll bring you one tomorrow."

"Speaking of tomorrow-" He started and our professor turned the lights off then back on again, something he did to warn us to quiet down. Jimin leaned over to speak to me quietly. "It's Johnny's birthday tomorrow and so we're having a party at my house. Maybe Tae mentioned it to you."

I shook my head, because I hadn't talked to him since the slight blowup yesterday.

"Oh, so are you not going with him?" He spoke in a normal tone and I gave him a look to be more quiet.

I shook my head again while keeping my eyes on the professor. We weren't close to the front at all but Jimin was pretty loud and had gotten called out by this teacher just for laughing too loud at something I said.

He held his pointer finger up to his lips to almost be 'shh'ing himself. "Do you want to go together?"

He already lived where the party was going to be, I don't know how that would work us going together. I guess he was just simply inviting me but I figured I'd ask. "How does that work?"

He chuckled, but this time it was quiet, tilting his head as if I was making a good point. "I'll take you to dinner first."

I couldn't help but think he was a little brave to do this when he was fully aware of Taehyung and I's weird relationship. I had to knock the thought out of my mind, well any thought of Taehyung for that matter. Like he said, we don't have ties to each other and he doesn't want to hold me back from anything. Jimin was cute, though I would never date someone I dance with, why not just go on this date with him?

"Okay." I said and he seemed a little shocked by this. "I think I'm going to want spaghetti."

"Josephine, is there something you want to tell everyone here?" The professor said to me and I shook my head, giving him a smile.