savior complex - kth

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It was now Monday and time for class and I hadn't seen Taehyung at all since he showed up at the studio yesterday morning. Kai just helped my technique to be more fitting for the type of dancing they do here and Jimin originally came to work on a duet for us but we decided we'd do that on Tuesday after our group practice. I went home to Jungkook ordering a pizza, "it's 'real italian pizza'" he told me.

My second class of the day was canceled so I went to the studio on my own, and there was a boy there but we didn't speak at all and stayed on our sides of the room to dance. Taehyung was once again missing from our class and I just can't believe he's able to attend this school and miss so many classes.

I went to practice and then Jungkook came to the building at around 6 to walk with me home, him and I walked home and played 20 questions. Almost all of the questions were based on being back home, or my family. I made a mental note to call my dad when I got home. When I did call my dad we talked for an hour, then I talked to Jasper for about 30 minutes and I just tried to tell him about life here. He told me a special he watched last night on my favorite ballerina, Margot Fonteyn, and I should watch it because it showed a lot of her performances.

I took a shower and was ready to go lay on the couch and eat the left over pizza when Jungkook asked if he could draw me taking a bite.

"I'm not just going to hold this up to my mouth if that's what you're asking." I took a big bite of it and I saw him begin to sketch.

He laughed and I could see the outline forming faintly on the paper. "No I think I can handle it without you doing that."

"You'll get another glance when I'm on slice two." I knew it'd be soon enough but I also knew Jungkook would probably have the image of me in his head anyways.

I was in and out of sleep with my stomach full because Jungkook had turned on his favorite anime, one I didn't particular care about and I was really worn out from today.

My body was shaken a little and when I opened my eyes I was looking up at Jungkook, moving my legs from the ball I had cuddled up into on the couch. "Jo-"

"Mm?" I mumbled out.

"This has your name on it." He held out a letter with my name written on the front, the writing was beautiful and looked like it had been written a hundred years ago with ink and a feather pen. "It was taped to the wall across from our door."

"Since when?"

Jungkook shrugged and pushed it out my way again, signaling me to take it. "I just was going to go for a walk and I saw it."

"Weird." I said quietly, but he heard me because he said back 'yeah'. When I unfolded the letter I could see the handwriting on the inside was just as nice as my name was on the outside. 'Study session? - Tae'

I sighed and leaned my head back against the back of the couch, shutting my eyes and just letting the note rest in my life. Jungkook had quickly snuck out so he wasn't here to ask me question, even though he probably wouldn't.

I pushed myself up and walked upstairs to get some shoes and make sure my hair was dry. It was more wavy than usual because I slept with it wet and I smiled because it reminded me of how my hair would dry out on the water in California. I wiped under my eyes to get rid of the makeup that I might have missed in the shower.

I know I had decided to not associate with Taehyung but the curiosity surrounding him eats me up inside, it leaves an itch in my brain. I was going to see what he wanted and let him know that I was too busy with dance to be coming to these parties or doing things with him. I walked alone down the New York City streets and looked at how the city was so bright at all hours of the day, even right now at almost 10.