Bereft (h.s)

33. Did he just say...

Chapter 33

Alycia's Pov.

"Candice I can't. I'm gonna have a mental breakdown." I explained as she sat in my living room, giving me the run down.

My single was released three days ago and it did really fucking well. I'm so stoked but it's scary because now I have to do press and things for it. That's my least favorite part of all of this.

She booked me to be a guest on Jimmy Fallon and I'm also performing. Kill me. Fuck, i'm so nervous. It's in New York and it's the day before my birthday.

"I'm so nervous, fuck." I mumbled and ran my hands down my face in frustration.

"This is an amazing opportunity and you know you'll have to start doing more of these interviews. This is a great way to start." She explained and sipped her coffee.

I've done a few radio interviews the past two days but this is my first sit down, in person interview.

The past three days have been intense with my single, my music video and radio interview stuff. I haven't seen Harry since our night that he made the movie night outside. I've just been really busy and stressed to be honest.

Anytime you have new music coming out, it's stressful. Colors did so well so I was just stressing so hard because I wanted this to do well also. I didn't wanna have a second single that flopped, obviously. So it's just been a lot of pressure.

I haven't spoke to Harry too much the past few days either. We speak everyday but it's been hard for me to constantly respond when I've had all these interviews and meetings. Also i'm just still trying to process everything he told me that night.

One thing I never asked him is, is this guy still stalking around my apartment? The man he hired? I don't know. I guess I just still have so many questions but I don't even wanna ask them because we had that conversation already. I don't wanna dig up old conversations.

Whenever my single released the other day, Harry posted it on his Instagram story and people went nuts. I didn't know he was going to do that but he did. I didn't mind him doing that, I think it was sweet, I just didn't know. I don't really want my song to get exposure simply because of him. I'm successful on my own and I want people to realize that.

I have to spend the next 3 or 4 days rehearsing to perform on Kimmel. Wow i'm nervous. I also have to tell Harry i'll be in New York on my birthday.

"And then we have to sort out th-" Candice started to say and then my phone started ringing.

I quickly grabbed it to see Harry's name displayed on the screen.

"Hold on." I told her and she sighed as I pressed the green answer button.

"Hello?" "Hi there love." He said and I smiled at his voice. "Hi love." I copied and he chuckled.

"Are you busy tonight?" He asked and I sighed. "Kinda. I just have rehearsal for a bit this afternoon." "But you're free after? Wait...rehearsal for what?" He asked and I smiled.

"It's a long story. Candice is here so i'll tell you in a bit when she leaves." I explained and eyed Candice who looks annoyed that I answered this call.

"Well it's been three days, I have to see you. It hasn't been fun getting three texts a day from you." He admitted and I frowned at his voice. He sounds sad but also frustrated and that gives me anxiety.

I don't want him to doubt us. I've just been busy. I can't help it and don't exactly know how to maneuver all of this right now.

"Are you being distant because of our fight the other night?" He asked and I got up to go to my room. I don't want to talk about this with Candice right here.