Bereft (h.s)

65. Back To Myself.

this is just a filler chapter so it's fairly short :)
a good song for this chapter though is leave the city - twenty one pilots.

Chapter 65

Alycia's Pov.

The second our lips touched, it felt like everything around us stopped. I know how dramatic that sounds but that's how it felt.

He was slow to kiss me back, I think he was shocked but the second he did, he was tugging me closer to him.

I started realizing once I could comprehend everything that just happened again, he's vulnerable.

I shouldn't have kissed him.

I pulled away and he just stared at me in shock.

"I'm sorry. I shouldn't have done that. It's not the ti-" I started to say but his snaked around the back of my neck as connected his lips to mine again.

He used more force this time but I could still tell he was so weak.

I pulled away and he furrowed his brows with such a disappointed look on his face.

"I'm sorry...I just-" "No, it's just...you're weak right now physically. And it's a vulnerable situation. I shouldn't have done that right now in the first place." "I'm happy you did. Even...if you didn't mean it."

He leaned back against the wall and I sighed.

"I meant it. But...it's just, wrong timing." "Yeah...all of this was. Fuck...Alycia i'm so sorry all of this happened tonight. I'm sorry." He said and his voice was hoarse. "I didn't want you even coming back in here. Mitch just ran out and I guess he thought you might know what happened. It's so fucked up that you had to see that. And do that."

I stood up and grabbed his empty cup of water that only had ice and filled it up with sink water. I know, gross, he needs some water though.

I handed it to him and he scrunched his face at me and I had to hide my little smile at the site of his cute facial expression.

"Drink it. You need water. It won't kill you." I said and he gave me a deadpan look. "Sorry, no pun intended." I said and a little laugh escaped his lips as he took the cup from my hands and drank the water

He was looking paler so I wanted him to drink it.

I sat back down, trying to figure out what i'm supposed to do now. He finished his water and extended it back to me.

I took it from his hand and sighed.

"Do you want more?" "Tasted like toilet water." He said weakly through his hoarse voice. "It's tap water Harry. Sorry this bathroom doesn't have a Brita filter." I said sarcastically and he chuckled.

Wow that sounded nice.

It was silent for a second before he spoke up again.

"Thank you." "For what?" "Not making this weird. I'm sure...the next hours are gonna be a lot of talks i'm not ready to have. So thank you for not lecturing me." "Oh, you just didn't give me time. If you ever pull some shit like that again, I will lose my shit Harry. You-" "I wasn't trying to kill myself." "Then what were you trying to do?" "I don't know. I took a few and I just took some more and I realized...I took a lot more than I needed. It was just...an honest mistake."