Bereft (h.s)

46. Not telling me.

Chapter 46

Alycia's Pov.

I woke up to Harry's sleeping face about 15 minutes ago. I haven't stopped looking at him since. Call me creepy but...he's just so perfect to me.

His lips are slightly parted and his curls are on his forehead with a few covering his eyes.

He went to bed with his hair wet, as did I, but it made his curls much more prominent I noticed. I like it. A lot.

One of his arms are draped over my waist.

He always likes to be touching me in some way when we sleep. I've noticed that. Even if it's just our feet touching. He always likes to be touching me.

I like it. I know it puts him at ease but it does the same for me. I'm sure he doesn't even know that though.

I felt so numb and out of it last night that I didn't even wonder how him seeing me in that state made him feel.

I can't tell him what happened last night. Honestly, I wish I wouldn't have told Matt either. But Harry just needs to focus on himself, his health, his tour coming up and all of the things that make him happy.

I don't want him to see me in the same state I was in last night. So I'm pulling my shit together this morning and i'm going to cook breakfast.

I remember Harry talking to Matt and Candice last night so I don't know if they stayed or not. I didn't ask.

I looked over at my bedside table at my Alexa to see the time.

9:58am

I tried to very gently and quietly get out of bed without waking Harry up, and luckily it worked.

I dragged myself to my bathroom to pee and also to watch my face, brush my teeth etc.

I woke up today and just chose to get over what happened last night. I don't like how I was acting or how I felt last night. I saw how worried everyone was...yet I feel like I couldn't even feel anything. It was kind of scary. And now since I woke up and feel a bit better, I don't want to dwell on what happened and put myself back there.

I'm okay.

I'm fine and that's all that matters so hopefully everyone can just let last night go.

I know I will.

I slowly slipped out of my room and closed the door quietly. Luckily Jasper stayed in bed with Harry so I went towards the guest room to see if everyone else had left or not.

I very slowly opened the door to see Candice asleep in bed. I'm surprised she's not up. She never sleeps this late. I don't know how late she stayed up though. I don't even know what time we went to bed. Late, I know that much.

I closed the door back and walked into the living room and saw Matt sprawled out on my couch. I couldn't help but laugh lightly at his position.

His leg was slung over the back of the couch and one of his arms was touching the floor. At least he's sleeping good. Everyone seems to be.